two graves

3

i took my keys out,entering the house. i could hear my mom talking to somebody on the phone.
l-,,hi,mom'' i whisper carefully
m-,,hi sweetie'' she mumbles back
i place the keys on the dinner table and walk up to my room. i lay my schoolbag on the floor and i fall into bed. man,today was tiring. of course, i didn t do anything other than sleeping on the school desks all day but just being there,at school made me tired. i close my eyes,trying to relax a bit before going downstairs to eat dinner but just then, a picture of me and bruce i had on my bedside fell. i get up,fixing it. as i take a closer look at the picture, i feel like a part of me dies. we looked so happy.
*FLASHBACK*
l-,,come on bruce lets take a pic!''
b-,,wait! i gotta fix my hair!'' he says laughing his ass off
l-,,that s literally the whole point! i want to make fun of your hair'' i laugh
at that point,neither of us could even breathe anymore from how much we have laughed.
b-,,NO IM NOT READY WAIT''
of course i still took it
b-,,there is no way i look like that.'' ,,OHHH IM GONNA FUCKING KILL YOU'' and with that, he starts chasing me around the mall. as i was running,i tripped over something and fell as bruce fell next to me. i laughed as hard as i could,not being able to stop,as he did the same.
l-,,aghh i think i just broke my ankle'' i say worried,but bruce starts laughing so i do too. bruce would always make me laugh,no matter what happened. i could be on my death bed crying but if he said something i would start laughing like crazy.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
i really,really miss bruce. but i know i have to be strong for him. i have to live for him. do what he will never be able to.
m-,,dinner time!'' i hear my mom yell from downstairs. i walk out,sensing the smell of fish she has cooked.
l-,,uuu,you cooked fish mama?''
m-,,yes! i know you love it''
l-,,on point.''
i LOVED the food she made. if i ever had to decide between eating fast food or home made food,i d definitely choose the second option. i sat down, in front of mum.
m-,,how was school?''
l-,,just...an usual day. nothing new''
m-,,i know we have talked about this but do you really like it here? do you even have any friends?''
l-,,man this school is boring and you know that but i do have friends. i have gwen...finney''
she just sighs
m-,,i know you used to be so much happier at your old school. what happened?''
l-,,nothing! really. i just feel like i should be surrounded only by the right people i actually enjoy spending time with. there is no point in having many friends i have beef with''
m-,,i like your mind set hun. i just wanted to make sure everything is good.''
l-,,it is! focus on yourself ma,you deserve it!''
she chuckled. i loved making her smile. this woman has done so many things for me,this was the bare minimum i could to for her.
l-,,about that,how is work?''
m-,,good! the boss is way nicer and going to work is not a nightmare anymore!''
l-,,glad to hear that''
most of the time,its just me and my mom. i have a dad but he works abroad. me and carmen,my mom,moved here so i could get a better education but dad had to stay there. he couldn t find any jobs here so he just occasionally visits us. we are still a family,a close one. just not literally. as we continued eating,she was talking to me about work and i was listening even if i didn t care much. she probably doesn t care about my school's drama either but still manages to listen so i felt like i should do the same.
m-,,sooo your birthday is coming up! are you inviting anyone over?''
l-,,yeah? i might invite gwen,finney and elsie''
elsie is my neighbour. she goes to a different school but we still see eachoter pretty often. she is a really nice girl and my mom also likes her a lot.
m-,,you don t want anyone else to come..?''
l-,,not really to be honest''
m-,,okay..'' that okay sounded really confused
m-,,but just so you know, its up to you. if you feel like you want more people then its fine. we have enough space'' she laughs.
l-..its fine ma. if magically, someone i become close with comes my way,i ll make sure to invite them.'' i say throught chuckles.
maybe i should make more friends...or hang out more often. while im talking to her i look like a creep. i barely have any friends. what if i look like that to the rest of the kids too?