two graves

7

as i stand by the lake with gwen,donna and clara, hearing the sound of frogs moving in the water and trees branches falling,i see two shadows approaching us. i turn around,seeing finney and robin. i could tell finn looked worried.
f-,,hi'' the other girls turn,looking up at him.
d-,,hi'' she says smiling as he smiles back. i look at robin who was stuttering, trying to speak.
r-,,luna can i have a word with you? alone?'' he motions his hand pointing to the empty bench on our right. i was surprised, confused and maybe scared? this thing doesn t happen everyday,on a daily basics. gwen punches my shoulder,in order for me to say something.
l-,,yeah...sure'' i say as i get up, eyes fixed on gwen that kep mouthing me something. i walk behind robin until he sits down followed by me.
r-,,im sorry'' what?
l-,,you are what now?''
r-,,sorry. im sorry. are you deaf?''
l-,,i wish i were''
r-,,i didn t realise i was mean to you. you have a strong personality and thats not exactly a bad thing. i. just cant stand it''
l-,,i dont actually''
r-,,what?''
l-,,i said i dont. i dont have a strong personality. are you deaf?'' i say quoting what he said earlier. he laughs. did i hear that right? he laughed?
l-,,to be honesc i thought you were full of yourself. i mean,i still think you are but thats the main reason i couldn t stand you''
r-,,i could say the same about you'' i laugh too.
l-,,and what made you change your opinion?''
r-,,nothing really. i still think you can be nicer but now that finn told me what happened with....bruce? i resonate with you.''
l-,,ah. bruce. ya....im sorry'' he seemed confused
r-,,for?''
l-,,being mean? maybe i judged you before we even got to know eachother''
r-,,probably.'' i just look at him. now that im closer to him than i ve ever been i notice his hair had the same colour as bruce's.
r-,,if i was a bad person i wouldn t have helped finney in the bathroom'' he was right.
l-,,right. thank you''
r-,,again. for?''
l-,,helping him. after bruce passed he was like the only one i could count on besides gwen. its hard seeing him sad everyday after school, walking home and just by looking at him i understand he is in pain''
r-,,you're welcome'' i took a moment and i realised i was talking to this mf like he was my friend. i hate him. i hate his eyes, i hate his lips,i hate his nose,i hate his laugh and i hate his damn personality. i hated his hair too until i realised how similar to bruce's it is so now i can t hate it.
l-,,but why am i even telling you this?''
r-,,beacause im a great listener?'' he shrugs,laughing
l-,,yea..for sure'' i say sarcastically.
r-,,anyways,that was everything i wanted to tell you. i don t think we will ever be grest friends but its nice knowing we dont despise eachother anymore''
l-,,well said. despise. but i still hate you'' he laughs again. everytime he laughs, that sound reminds me of something. its familiar. bruce. its sounded like his.
r-,,lets go back and pretend we don t hate eachother. for finney''
l-,,i think we can do that'' i actually hate him less,i dont have to pretend to. its something real. i dont accept him now beacause he is nicer or prittier or smarter but beacause he reminds me of bruce in some ways. we walk away to the rest of the group.
f-,,you still hate eachother?''
g-,,please say no'' she mumbles. robin looks at me before opening his mouth
r-,,no'' i could tell he didn t mean it but we agreed on saying we are friends now,for finney.
d-,,yay!'' donna exclaims.
c-,,finally! does that mean we can get ice cream?''
g-,,yeah that such a great idea!''
c-,,wohooo! lets goo!!! she yells,starting to run before saying
c-,, who gets there last gets to pay for two!''  no one ran until we heard that but then everyone started sprinting like there was no tomorrow. in the end, donna was the last one but we eventually forgave her and saved the poor girl from paying twice. we agreed we will let it slide,just this time. after eating, we went to the swings. we laughed until someone almost kicked us out. thats how we spent the rest of the day,actually. laughing our asses off until we had to leave. of course me,finn and gwen went home together, donna with clara and robin said his uncle will pick him up. when i got home it was already pretty late so i just ate dinner with ma and went to bed. i could barely sleep tho, thinking about how similar robin is to bruce.