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choi minjun had did something unforgivable to yang seongmin. the day it happened, minjun's world came crushing down. seongmin had ignored him for his actions. his roommate, his best friend, his love of his life even though they weren't da...
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minjun woke up with a massive headache, but he was used to it at this point in time. seongmin was waiting in the kitchen for minjun.
minjun went inside the kitchen to get more painkillers, but saw seongmin staring at him.
"oh, not avoiding me? that's a big step," minjun said chuckling awkwardly.
"y-you didn't come to the café yesterday, why didn't you?" minjun added, trying to spark up an nonexistent conversation.
"did you not get my message?" seongmin finally spoke.
"no? what message? my phone's dead," minjun explained.
"well i wanted to hear you out," seongmin said.
"oh, uh okay?" minjun replied.
"i'm sorry about that incident, i haven't visit my therapist lately and so that could be a reason. i wasn't thinking anymore, i just wanted to leave, no one would care, right? obviously not. you cared, but took it the wrong way. i can't forgive myself, but can you forgive me?"minjun said.
seongmin was once again speechless, he knew secretly what minjun has been through, but this was like the cherry on top of an ice cream sundae.
"you.. never told me the truth," seongmin said. ignoring what minjun said.
"the truth?"
"yeah, i know everything. that day of the senior party, i followed you when you left the party. you were completely drunk, so i knew you wouldn't remember. i told you my name was, jaehyun. you believed it, and told me everything," seongmin said.
"w-what? you used me drunk to your advantage?! i can't believe you!" minjun yelled. he was furious, his blood was curdling with anger.
"i wanted to know what was up! i know it was my fault, i shouldn't have ignored you.."
"well you fucking did ignore me, look where it ended up," minjun retorted.
minjun ran into his room and slammed the door shut.
"dumbass, these doors don't have locks."
minjun stood in front of his bed and turned to look at seongmin.
"my mental health has been dreading, me overthinking, me self harming, drinking, you're glad i didn't try drugs. i was so close, but i'm not ruining my life for someone i love. i love you so much, yang seongmin, you're the only fucking person that who made me feel like this! but, the day you started to ignore me, i felt heart broken. my heart hurts and aches, my chest even hurts and aches, from you. i'm not trying to pin the blame on you, but your partially to blame," minjun yelled.
seongmin knew he was at fault, he knew minjun had feelings for him, he knew everything.
"well you still haven't answered my question, your life has been like shit and you never told me, while i tell you everything," seongmin retaliated.
"so? i don't want anyone to know about my backstory, it's the worst experience of my life."
"what, are you a pussy or something?"
"d..don't call me that," minjun whispered instead of yelling back.
"why? you're being a fucking ass pussy right now. you straight up just yelled at me and expect me to listen to you to not call you a pussy? you're a fucking pussy bitch, choi minjun," seongmin yelled.
minjun felt his heart shatter, his chest started to hurt and ache in pain.
"because, that's what my father fucking called me every time he hit me. fine, call me whatever name you want. pussy, disgrace, disappointment, dishonor to your life, stupid, ugly, dumb, asshole, anything. i'm used to it. a person i finally love, abusing me as well. why can't i do anything right? i really am a dumbass who can't do anything. i just fuck up a lot, don't i? i can't do shit it seems like," minjun raised his voice.
minjun sat on his bed and threw a blanket over him.
"choi fucking minjun. i love you too, i love you to bits. but, how can i love you if you don't even trust me?" seongmin said.
"my childhood is so traumatic so i hate talking about it, i just didn't want you to worry about me."
seongmin grabbed the blanket over minjun and pulled it off him. it revealed minjun who was crying. minjun looked up and made eye contact with seongmin. minjun's vision was blurry from all the tears, but he can still see seongmin.
"n-no, you're not supposed to see me in this state," minjun's breathed hitched. minjun hated when people saw him cry, it made him feel weak.
seongmin started to teared up.
"fuck, i'm sorry, minjun, for everything. from ignoring you, from using you while you were drunk, to arguing with you now. i had anger built up into me and i guess i used it the wrong way, forgive me, please," seoingmin said. he climbed on the bed and he hugged minjun. he put his head in the crook of minjun's neck.
"i'm sorry, seongmin, for not telling you everything, not being honest, for the incident, for everything," minjun whispered. he hugged seongmin back.
"seongmin, i'm sorry, this is all my fault."
"no it's not, don't think that, minjun."
"be mine, yang seongmin," minjun said loud and clear.
"do i have options?" seongmin chuckled.
"it's a yes or no question, dumbass," minjun responded.
"or."
"fuck you."
"i'm kidding, i will be yours, choi minjun," seongmin said.
"sorry this is such a horrible confession, i wish i thought through with a way better confession that had a deep meaning," minjun said.
"i won't. or else i'll be a pussy. and besides, i have you here to comfort me anytime," minjun responded as he cupped seongmin's face and wiped his tears with his thumbs.
"and you know you can cry in front of me, i want you to feel the happiest, and how will i know that if you won't even tell me when you cry?"
"fine, maybe i will, but only for you."
seongmin was squirming around in happiness from the confession. he rolled over and lied beside minjun. he hugged minjun tight, hugged him like a clingy koala. he submerged his face on minjun's chest. minjun's heart felt like it was beating a hundred miles an hour it felt like. and, seongmin could hear it all. minjun's face was red like a tomato, and he was smiling uncontrollably. minjun hugged back and embraced seongmin. he kissed seongmin's temple and placed his forehead on his. as he caressed seongmin's face, seongmin flashed his pretty gummy smile. how can someone be so beautiful, minjun thought. seongmin was the only thing minjun cared about. minjun was finally in his happy place, and no one could stop him. how did i pull one of the most perfect boys, seongmin thought. they both were sleepy, but seongmin managed to say one last thing before they drifted off to bed in each others embrace.
