Attack on Titan from Grisha's POV

Visions of Grisha

'Huh? Why can't I control my own body'

I think to myself as I look at those everlasting walls. I notice Mikasa and Armin in my peripheral vision, both look stiff as if frozen in time. Staring at the walls with beads of sweat coming down, "my" gaze focuses on the steam coming from the wall. Suddenly my heart drops as a large red titan's face peers over us like cattle in a cage. Its head is covered in bright red muscle with no skin whatsoever. Large exposed teeth that look as if they could rip a horse in half with one bite. The titan starts to move but the wall covering it makes it difficult to predict what he's going to do. The tension was palpable as this air of danger and uncertainty hung onto us, gripping us with its tight hands. Almost as if the atmosphere itself was trying to mercilessly strangle us. A large bang breaks the eerie silence as debris comes flying over from the kicked down wall.

I see the people around me being smushed to death easily. With no significance, this titan had crushed us like bugs, with the rest of us squirming to get away. Still not in control of my body, I'm thrust down to my knees in a position that I can only describe as defeated and utterly pathetic. Weak and powerless against this godlike threat that's come to judge us all.

"Why? Why is this happening? Eren! Mikasa! Carla!"

I woke up to my hand being outstretched, covered in a harsh cold sweat that seemed to engulf me. I'm unable to slow my own breath until I feel a soft hand touch mine.

"G-Grisha, are you ok? You look pale and you woke up screaming our names"

Her angelic voice breaks me out of this horrifying trance as I start to get better control of my breath. I take her into a hug which she recoils from initially due to the suddenness of the situation. She gives an awkward yet loving hug back, I can tell she's confused.

"Y-yeah I'm fine Carla ... just a bad dream is all"

I decide to keep the almost realistic dream hidden because she'd think of me as crazy otherwise.

"Are you sure? Do you need anything?"

She asks with a look of concern on her face. I play it off to quell her concern.

"I'll be fine. Just breakfast and a cup of tea would be nice before work."

She nods and leaves the room, probably heading into the kitchen to fulfill my request. I smile softly as she walks out, reminiscing about how we first met. When she leaves the room I hoist myself up from the bed and start getting dressed for work. My mind fixates on the dream as my body goes on autopilot. I twist and turn in my mind, thinking about just how insane it was. I wrap the black trench coat around my body to finish off and absentmindedly enter the kitchen. I see Carla setting down a dish and a cup of tea. Mikasa eats her food quietly and calmly, not rushing herself and looking almost dignified. Perfectly juxtaposed to her, Eren eats quite boorishly, rushing as he quickly slams his fork into the food and into his mouth. I have no idea where he gets the energy from but he's always been a fighter.

"Eren, you're gonna choke if you keep eating like that"

I say with a slight smirk as I grab the newspaper and sit down.

"Thank you honey"

I get in before Eren shouts back with a stuffed face

"I'm not gonna choke Dad! Jeez, stop treating me like a kid!"

I laugh softly and smile at him. I'm always careful to never pressure the boy too much. I regret not having been a father to Zeke. I put an unimaginable weight on him, it's no wonder he did what he did. I blame myself everyday for how terrible of a father I was but, now I've been given the chance to make up for it. Although, I still wonder about Zeke every day.

The rest of the breakfast goes as usual. I read the newspaper while taking occasional bites and sipping my tea. Carla finishes last night's dishes while Eren and Mikasa eat breakfast. Eren and Carla get into some insignificant fight. After I finish my food and tea, I take the dish, utensils, and cup to Carla for her to wash. I get my bag ready and explain to them the jobs I have for today. I wave them all good bye and remind Eren that he needs to get firewood tomorrow morning.