Losing Me, Loving You ( Teenage Series #2)

Kabanata 3

Kabanata 3

True

"Eviasa, your family owns huge haciendas, right?" One of my batchmates asked me.

"Ah, before, my father owned some but binawi ng-"

"OMG! I told you! She's an old rich money. Sa ganda ba naman nyang yan." I swallowed hard. Yumuko ako at nanahimik na lamang.

My father owns a huge hacienda before but because of his incompetency pinatalsik sya ng aking Lolo na kailanman ay hindi ko pa na-meet. Mapagyabang ang Papa ko. Puro salita at laging kulang sa gawa. Now we just have a little piece of land in Nueva Ecija pero mapapakinabangan rin ito. Tinanggalan na nga ng mana ng aking Lolo si Papa ay pati ang maipagmamayabang nya rin.

I looked at the people around me.

I sighed heavily.

They all really did think so highly of me just because of my face they all jump to their conclusions. People around me frequently always project a ready-made one of my personality that's why I always think that I can never share my true personality with them.

It is really hard and draining.

I just know that nobody really knows the real me because I'm unable to let them see it. How can I let them see it when they already have an idealistic one of me in their minds? No one really likes me, they just like my face and the idea of 'me' in their minds.

Umiling ako sa sarili.

My trust issues have been so high than before. I kept questioning myself. Do they really like me or is it just my appearance?

"Evi! How's your exam?" Lumingon ako sa mga senior na lalaki.

Hindi ko alam kung sasagutin ko sila o hindi. I find it creepy. I don't know them but they do know me? O assumera lang talaga ako? How do they even know that I had exam today?

Umiwas nalang ako ng tingin dahil hindi rin ako komportable kung paano nila ako tignan.

"Bro she just ignored you, lol." Rinig ko ang tawanan nila nang medyo makalayo ako.

"Told you sobrang sungit daw nyan. Suplada."

"Base sa mga juniors pati daw sila di pinansin."

"Baka bakla?" Mas lalo pang lumakas ang hagalpakan nila. "Sayang naman."

"Ang yabang naman nya porket maganda." Huminga ako ng malalim at nagpatuloy lamang sa paglakad.

Totoo naman ang mga sinasabi nila. Masungit ako at suplada. I don't entertain people that I'm not interested with unless I'm bored. Mabait ako, masasabi ko yon oo, siguro? Sumasama kaagad ang timpla ko at madaling mainis sa mga taong hindi ko gusto ang presenya pero natatago ko naman ng mabilis ang reaksyon ko. I can be as plastic as other people do not until the confrontation happen. I mind my own business and trying to accompany myself even if I can't be alone or I just choose not to because I'm scared?

But I realized that I will not be able to enjoy my high school life if I do not get out of my damn comfort zone.

"Can I sit here?" I looked up at the person who asked me that. She has such an expensive voice.

Agad akong napatayo sa aking upuan at muntik pang mabuwal.

Pucha!

Yearca Veran!

"Uh... every chair is now occupied eto nalang nasa tabi mo ang hindi." Banggit nya habang ibinaba na ang hawak na tray ala pa man ang pag sang ayon ko.

"I'm Cascae Yetheniers Veran!" She sweetly smiled at me as she handed me her hand.