Diamond

Rock bottom

I snorted 2 lines of coke off my marble dresser top. I had been getting my supply from Chico for going on 3 weeks now . After that first night I met him I saw him almost everyday. He said I was his girl now. He drove me to school and let me stay at his crib sometimes. On top of that he gave me free product whenever I asked. I actually was running behind on time he would be here to pick me up for school in 20 minutes and I hadn't even showered. I wiped the evidence off the dresser with my hand. I quickly took a 5 minute shower and put on a white tshirt and some shorts. I looked in the mirror making sure my low bun was sleek and tamed. Just as I was putting on the thick gold chain Chico had gotten me my phone chimed. Chico was calling. "Ayo hurry yo ass up I'm downstairs , you ain't see my text?" He blurted into my eardrum. This nigga was always rushing me. "Nigga don't be rushing me I'll be down in a minute hold up." I grumbled. I didn't want my mom to hear me in the next room. I mean Ruby let me get away with a lot of shit , but Chico was a grown ass man and I was still in high school . She would never let that shit fly. He sucked his teeth and abruptly hung up in my face.I put an extra little stash of coke in my purse for later, before rushing downstairs. I didn't bother saying gooodbye to my mom. Ever since that day she kicked me out we had been on the outs. She thought I was changing and being disrespectful. And I thought I was growing into my true self. We barely spoke. I never said good bye or good night or asked her for shit, she seemed to return the favor. I swiftly walked down the stairs. Soon as I made it to Chico's front seat , he gave me the evil eye. "Why the fuck you can't pick up yo phone and text a nigga back, it's like you want me to flip the fuck out on you." Chico boomed as he skirted off. I ignored him looking directly ahead of us. He jerked the car out of no where, causing me to hit my face on the dashboard. I felt blood splatter on my thighs as I leant forward grasping at my nose. "What the fuck is wrong with you ! Stupid!" I roared hoping I didn't get blood on my shirt. "That'll teach your ass to stop talking to me out the side of yo mothafuckin neck." He said calmly switching lanes. "My shirt better not be fucked up." I said as he handed me a few napkins. I cleaned myself up , like my life depended on it. I looked down at my shirt and lo and behold there was blood spread all over my bleached shirt. I looked over at Chico angrily. "You got blood all over my damn shirt.shit." I spat trying to rub at the blood. "Chill out I got an extra shirt in the trunk." Chico said pulling over. I had got into it with him before. I mean we was really throwing them bitches. But I had never been hit by a man , let alone fought one. After our little altercation we agreed that shit was for the birds and promised to never do it again. He hopped out and got the shirt and came to the passengers side . He tried handing me a grey shirt that was one size too big for me. I couldn't look raggedy in front the crew ,this sweatshirt wasn't gone cut it. I rolled my eyes and turned my nose up. Chico without warning swung my door open. He hovered over me staring into my soul. We were face to face now . I mean our noses were damn near touching. "You gone wear this shit and you gone like it, and stop actin like a mothafuckin stuck up bitch." He roared. He slipped his hand around my throat forcing my face to look up at him , causing my pussy to start pulsating. He suddenly stuck his tongue in my mouth kissing me deeply, like he did when he was fucking me. I moaned softly , feeling the wetness pool in my panties. Chico stopped and looked down at me, lust present in his eyes. He licked his lips . I could tell he was thinking. "You gone listen to papi from now on." He commanded more than asking. I nodded my head yes. He slammed my door , before hopping in his whip and pulling off. I through the shirt on quickly. "You better not be fucking wit these little ugly ass niggas at school." He spoke scratching at his chin. I laughed holding my belly. I hadn't even been worried about the little boys at school I had seen and been through so much shit, I knew they weren't mentally on my level . I side eyed him. "Boy please I don't fuck wit little kids." I said looking in the mirror making sure I looked put together. He smiled big. Just then we arrived at the back of my school. " I got some new shit I want you to try it for me and tell me if it's straight." Chico said reaching in his pocket . He pulled out a bag of  little blue pills. He handed me 4 . I loved when he gave me knew product to try. I felt excitement at the tip of my toes . "Only take 1 at a time Diamond , these shits strong as fuck, this not no weak baby bullshit." He said . I put them in my pocket shaking my head. " okay you still picking me up from school later?" I asked grabbing my purse. " Yea you staying at my crib tonight too , so get ready ." He said rubbing his hands together. I could feel myself blushing . I knew what that meant. I rolled my eyes. "No nigga you get ready." I clapped back. He let out a deep chuckle. Chico loved to fuck me all the time and be around me. He was lowkey always up under me but he wasn't no clingy nigga , he was a different breed . I slammed his door before walking towards my first period. I plopped one blue pill in my mouth swigging it back with my bottled water like an Advil. I stopped walking thinking should I take another pill. Chico only said one but I knew how to handle my shit by now. Plus what I sniffed earlier was already starting to wear off. Hesitation ceased my body. I looked at the little blue tablet in the palm of my hand. It felt like the shit was calling my name. I hurriedly took it before I could change my mind. I opened the classroom door. It was AP physics. Halfway through the class I could feel my reality slipping. My heart began beating 10 times faster. I just wanted to get the hell up out this class now. The bell rang signaling first period was over. Sweat dripped from my thighs.But I was cold? As the last students were leaving the room, I could see my teacher Mr.Dunwall making his way over to me . I packed me things away quickly. I didn't want him to sense something off with me. Last thing I needed was my mama up at this got damn school. "Diamond is everything okay at home? You are one of my top students , but you've been having a D in my class for the past few weeks." Concern laced through his words . I racked my brain for something to say. Dunwall adjusted his glasses . " I'm sorry I've just been really stressed and I fell off my game..I'm going to pick my grade up ASAP." I spoke hoping I sounded normal. Mr. Dunwall shook his head relieved, as he got up from the seat. He handed me a test with yet another F plastered across the front, before walking back to his desk. I let out a silent breath. I rushed outside , praying he didn't have more to say. The girls met me right outside my class.I was so happy I was now part of their crew. "Damn bitch you okay ? You look sick." Raina said popping her gum. My chest filled with anxiety . "Shit your ass look like a mothafuckin ghost." Bria loudly stated . I blanked out momentarily. Trinny belted out a laugh .But my body felt hot. I could feel my reality slipping further and further away from me. Shit. I didn't like this feeling. "Girl what the fuck you got on ?" Layla interjected pointing at Chico's grey tshirt.  Karla choked on her gatorade and snickered. "Girl shit nothing , some bullshit happened this morning with Chico he was trippin" I said. "Im already knownin, shit my nigga be trippin too" , Meeka let out. After all the chat and giggles we headed to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and my jaw was slightly twitching. I looked crazy as hell. I splashed water on my face and applied some lipgloss. A new thin layer or sweat plastered itself on my forehead, I wasn't even alll that hot . Thats when things took a turn for the worse. My world began moving in slow motion. Panic raced through my veins. My breathing was becoming ragged. Now I was scared shitless. I hurriedly whipped out my phone and texted Justus. I knew I should call Chico but I knew he would be pissed the fuck off that I took more pills than he said to. I would never hear the end of it. "Justus come get me pls." I sent out. No response. Fuck. the bathroom started spinning. I bit down on my bottom lip. I called him. He picked up on the third ring. " Who da fuck is this?" he barked into the phone. "Justus its Di- its me Diamond" I stammered.  "Diamond?" He responded as if he never heard of me. Tears formed at the rim of my eyes. I knew we weren't on the best terms but he ain't have to dog me out. He let off a hefty laugh. Just then I felt my true self floating from my body. My self control was about to become real limited. This happened to me once before when I did a couple too many lines of coke I damn near had an overdose, I slept for 2 days at Chicos house and woke up in a cold sweat. "come get me please." I pleaded. I had never begged in my life. Justus suddenly fell quiet. "Where you at D?"He demanded. "School." I weakly answered. He hung up quickly. "Diamond , we finna go to our next class.. who you was on the phone wit?" Meeka inquired. Her face looked distorted. I looked down at the tiled floor. " Im finna go chill wit one of my niggas." I said putting my phone in my back pocket. I hoped Justus was on his way to get me. I couldn't tell if he had just blown me off or if he was really on his way. A smirk momentarily played across Meeka's lips. " Shit I aint mad at ya , do ya thang ...see you later. " She shrugged.  The girls nodded at me and left as the second period bell rang. I dropped to my knees ..I could barely walk. I crawled to the last stall, and locked it. I didn't want anybody to find me like this. I felt my back pocket buzz. I closed my eyes. It buzzed for several more seconds. My arms refused to work. The buzzing stopped for a minute. then picked back up from the beginning. I mustered whatever strength I had and pulled my phone out. I answered hurriedly, my eyes still glued shut. "Diamond where yo little ass at, I'm here." Justus said. "Just- I can't ...I can't do it, I'm in the girls bathroom come. " I whispered. "Wha-" Justus sighed , before I heard a click. Minutes later I heard the door to the restroom open.I opened my eyes slightly.  Justus ran in. I could tell it was him he had on his favorite pair of Jordans. They were custom made, I could see them from underneath the stall. He immediately  kicked my stall door in. His green eyes found me on the ground. "Diamond ..what the fuck you do baby." He said his face filled with hurt.