Diamond

Toxic

My head was pounding. I could feel my stomach turning as I splashed cold water on my face. I couldn't cry anymore I was numb. I couldn't believe Justus had put his hands on me. He wasn't the type to do some stuff like that, I could tell he was livid ...I was definitely scared for him to return
to the room. I had been on the phone with Chico trying to explain myself and my whereabouts but he wasn't hearing none of that shit , he cursed me out and called me all types of bitches promising to hunt me down , when Justus bust in. Glass remained shattered all over the floor causing painful cuts on the soles of my feet. Wincing my way out the hotel bathroom I boggled my mind for solutions. I had no money and no idea where the hell I was, plus no phone now. The options were looking slim. I could just leave the hotel and start a whole new life here and leave everything behind. My heart dropped. I didn't know what to do. All the book smarts I had and I couldn't produce answers to this problem! I needed to escape. My emotions were starting to make me feel ill. I quickly searched Justus small carryon bag hoping he brought some pills or something along with him. No luck . Fuck. I angrily threw the bag on to the floor frustratedly. Simultaneously a small square structure tumbled out of the bag and across the plush floor. I looked closely then picked it up ,it was a Gucci wallet . It was Justus Gucci wallet. I hesitated before looking through it. I never stole from Justus or even asked him for money.  But this nigga had tried me for the last time. There was a a black card and a few thousand dollars cash in the little leather wallet. I took out a thousand and threw the wallet back in the bag along with everything else. I changed into a hooded mini dress Justus had just bought me at the mall , and some red and black retro Jordan 4's. I touched up my hair making sure I looked decent. Tucking the money in my bra I left the room locking the door with the spare key. I didn't know where I was going I just needed to go. I stumbled upon a liquor store within 10 minutes of walking. Since I didn't have any coke to calm my nerves I would just get shit faced drunk then. I walked in the store hearing a bell chime upon my entrance. The cashier greeted me briefly before focusing his attention back to his phone. I made my way to the liquor section. I picked up 2 pints of Hennessy then swaggered my way to the front. The young cashier rang up the bottles  nonchalantly before looking me over. His eyes roamed over my body before landing on my face. His eyebrows scrunched together momentarily before he opened his mouth. "Uh um ...ima need to see some ID shawty". He stated putting the bottles in a plastic bag. Shit. Sometimes I forgot I wasn't legal yet. I looked around the store. It was just us , probably because it was still early. "Damn I forgot it at the hotel ... um think you can let me slide this one time". I lied charmingly. He licked his lips shaking his head and letting out a laugh. " You  tryna play a player baby". He smoothly said looking down at me. I pulled $500 out my bra and sat it on the counter in front of him crossing my fingers internally hoping he'd take the bribe . The smile quickly left his face. He nodded his head and put a hundred in the register before pocketing the rest, he suddenly sat the bag of liquor on the floor behind the counter with him. "It's gone cost you  a lil more than that". He said nastily. My eyes went to his name tag . It read Monte. Monte wasn't ugly his skin was smooth and pretty and his white teeth glistened when he smiled. He was cute. That didn't mean I wanted to fuck him and I could tell that's what he was implying. I was naive not stupid. He looked to be several years older than me. I began fidgeting with my hands. "Come with me to the back right quick". He lowly said rubbing his palms together. I could just leave and say fuck it... but I needed that liquor, I wouldn't be able to get through the day without it. Monte began walking to the back without another word as if he knew I would come without a doubt. I followed quietly behind him ,impulsively making my choice. He brought us to a tiny room with a cloth black sofa. I could tell it was where he probably had his lunch break. He sat on the sofa comfortably like he was waiting for something. I got on my knees in front of him thinking he wanted me to give him some head. Just as I was unbuckling his pants I felt his hands firmly grip my upper arms and pull me up. "Nah baby I wanna see what that pussy is like".  He whispered pulling me in between his legs. My eyes got big as he pushed my dress up exposing my bare pussy. He leant don't putting his nose to my mound inhaling and letting out a deep moan. "Mmmm let me taste you". He said before forcing his tongue into my slit. I shivered before my back arched in response. Monte gripped both sides of my hips burying his lips deeper into my entrance. He began sucking on my clit and gulping down my juices whilst spreading my ass cheeks. The room filled with the sounds of him slurping. My pussy was pulsating. Damn this shit felt so fucking good. I hadn't had good head in a while especially in this position while standing. My hips began bucking as he sped his pace. My legs shook , I could tell I was going to cum soon. Monte moaned in my pussy before pulling  back. I stared down at him hornier than ever now. Shit. Now I wanted some dick. I yanked his pants down and straddled him, I was finna fuck the shit out this nigga. "You have a condom"? I asked thinking last minute. He shook his looking me in my eyes. "It don't matter I'm a virgin anyways and you definitely don't taste like you have something". He said gripping my waist . Ain't no way this man was a virgin. My heart pounded in my chest as I second guessed myself. Fuck it. I grabbed his dick , it was so hard and warm in my hand. He had to be at least 8 inches. I rubbed it against my wetness making him take in a sharp breath. I lowered myself onto him letting him fill me up. A loud moan escaped my lips. I couldn't help it. "Fuck you grippin the hell out my shit". Monte exclaimed through gritted teeth. I humped him back and forth slowly rotating my hips making sure to swallow every inch of his girth. My slick juices began running down his balls . "This some good ass shit ..fuck". I yelled out. I gyrated  faster and faster. Mmm damn I was hitting my gspot. I bent all the way back still riding him using his work shirt collar like reins to a horse. He was moaning out loud like a bitch. It was turning me on how mesmerized he was. I had an out of body experience as I came over and over again. Monte came with me breathing harshly in my ear . He was holding onto me for dear life. Reality enveloped us once more. I put my hands behind him on each side of his head and pushed myself up off of him. "Can I have my shit now". I huffed pulling my dress past my ass cheeks. Monte looked at me enthralled. He fixed himself then walked by me leading the way. When we made it back to the front he handed me the white plastic bag.I went to grab it and he held on to my wrist not allowing me to turn away. "Gimme your number" he demanded crazily. "What's your mothafuckin name shawty... you sexy as fuck". He blurted before I could reply to the first statement . I snatched my wrist back scared now. "The names Diamond I gotta go though um I  stay off 12th ave and Brooks". I said nervously naming the cross streets of the hotel I was staying at. I was afraid that if I didn't tell the truth or tell him something at the very least he would flip the fuck out on me. I booked it back to the room with the bottles dangling at my calf's. Justus hadn't made it back just yet. I found a cup in the bar. It was a beautiful crystal container. I took 4 shots back to back ... regretting that I didn't buy a chaser as well. I poured half a glass of the brown liquid remembering I could just get a soda from the bar .I never experienced having a bar in a hotel suite before. Best hotel I had stayed at was motel 6. I grabbed a cocoa cola from the modern looking chilled bar display. I finished the glass in 5 minutes. I turned up one of my favorite songs on the flat screen wiggling my ass to the beat. I grooved around the spacious room singing along, rolling my neck and pointing my finger at an imaginary no good nigga. I gulped down some more liquor in between the slow versus. I could feel myself sweating now. I stripped down out of my dress and kicked off my shoes. I stumbled back a bit laughing at myself in the process. At least I didn't drop my cup, I thought taking another swig. At this point I didn't even need the chaser this shit was starting to taste like water. Fuck. I needed to shower before Justus got back I could still smell Montes cologne on my naked skin. I took off my bra and stumbled towards the bathroom. I pushed the broken glass that still lay on the floor to the side with a towel , before tip toeing to the luxurious bathing station. I lathered my body over and over making sure no evidence of  my earlier escapades was present. Justus always noticed anything different about me physically and scent wise. I mean it's not like I was about to fuck him , especially after that shit he pulled earlier, but one could never be too careful. I shut the water off and let my wet curls fall to my face. Snatching a towel from the sink I wrapped it around my body. The liquor was keeping me nice and toasty in the welly air conditioned room. I wish Eliot could be here to see this with me and Lani and Daddy, I  missed mom most of all. A sadness fell over me momentarily. I never imagined being in the position which was my current state. I was going to fix it . I perked up a bit remembering who i was  ,i will be better i promised internally .