(Journal)
July 13
My mom says that Chris E. is coming over, he's known me since I was a fetus so we're kinda close. He was there for my mom when I tried to kill myself twice. But, when I had the dream with the panic attack, I really wanted to kill myself just so I wouldn't suffer anymore but my mom just had a baby almost a year ago and I can't leave them, Chris, he acted as a father figure so I know it hurt him when he got a call that I was in the hospital when I was four.
It hurt everyone.
I've tried to kill myself because I thought I'd be burden on him. I mean something like that, basically having a daughter but not really can be a bitch. There is a time that I wish I was his so I wouldn't have to deal with my shitty dad. But the thought of him ,(Chris), not having to make sure I'm safe cause I'd be gone would be nice but it also hurts to know that he's known me for a long time and one day poof. I'm gone. Anyways he's coming over to make sure I don't kill myself is sorta nice I guess.
I think he's here so I've got to go. I'll talk about how it went later.
See ya,
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Journal of Veronica Reynolds
FanfictionWarning: this has a very heavy topic of Suicide and verbal abuse and contains PTSD DEPRESSION and ANXIETY This story is about the daughter of Scarlett Johansson and Ryan Reynolds this story acts as her journal about how she tried to end her own lif...
