This one is going to be a real life and journaling to make it more interesting
I wanted to scream but I couldn't.
I could feel my throat closing up and I wanted to scream. But I couldn't.
"Veronica"
I dart my eyes around the room trying to control myself
"Veronica, look at me. Over here."
I finally set eyes on my mom to her looking scared wiping tears off my face. I try to speak but can't. "it's okay baby, I'm here. Look at me your okay just try to breath."
Then the worst part happens.
I stop breathing.
(Journal)
So yeah, I scared the crap out of my mom and myself.. I fucking hate panic attacks they always have me ending up in the ER but I can't take meds because last time I had them I tried to kill myself which was pleasant for everyone. I guess I'll talk about it in my next journal. I had that fucking dream and it caused me to have a fucking panic attack. I wish I could stop them but meds aren't allowed.
I had my therapy session today so I had to talk about my dream which was a trigger. Anyways, it went okay but I have to practice my breathing which should be interesting. 4 breaths in four breaths out.
I've been going to therapy for a few years then stopped now I'm continuing.
Anyways my mom is calling me to talk about it.
See ya,
V
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Journal of Veronica Reynolds
Fiksi PenggemarWarning: this has a very heavy topic of Suicide and verbal abuse and contains PTSD DEPRESSION and ANXIETY This story is about the daughter of Scarlett Johansson and Ryan Reynolds this story acts as her journal about how she tried to end her own lif...
