Consequences ~Justin Foley

Mistake

ILL FORCE HER
IF I HAVE TO

I try my best to hide the blue paper fitting it in my pocket as I try scan the hallways. Try see who the fuck is sending me shit.

How did they know? Who the hell else heard Bryce say that? I'll force her if I have to.
Seven words playing through my mind that I never had proof of knowing if it was actually true until now.

Justin was the only person to tell me that he said that.
And he's as good as dead right now.

"Fallon."
No. No I really want to avoid you.
Not talk to you. You're no fucking help.

I turn my head around to see Mr Porter try approach me in the hallways but I don't even try to start a conversation.

"Mr Porter." I briefly greet and he still doesn't take the hint when I try my best to avoid him gripping my bag tightly as I walk past him through the school hallways.

But he manages to catch up to me following me.

"Just reminding you of our appointment after lunch."
I don't reply continuing to walk away from him and fast.

"Fallon I'd like it if you could talk to me."
I quickly stop my rushed avoidance as I stop in the middle of the hallway to now face him.

"Have you met me? I don't really care about what you like."

"I know, but I really think you could use someone to talk to." I could use someone to talk to?
Hell I could use a lot of people to talk to me if I actually had the courage to open my mouth.

"I also saw Scott Reed talking to you yesterday, is he bothering you?" I actually laugh by his assumption.
Scott Reed may be an asshole who's hanging out with someone who's the reason why I want to kill myself right now.

But he's possibly the only person who stopped me from taking my own life that night. It doesn't mean I didn't try attempt after.

But I owe him that, and evidently I owe him back with science homework.

"No. No he's not."
"But if he is, if any of them-" I quickly stop realising where he thought this was going.

"I'm good." I shut down his next words as I clutch onto the strap of my bag now wanting to hide and scream into my locker.

"Your therapist, doctor Ryan-"
"Confidential territory Mr Porter." I remind him that I get to say whatever I want to my therapist and it doesn't get let out.

"My office is also confidential territory."
He shoots me an assuring smile but I don't believe a single word that flies out his mouth.

"Not with this trial it isn't." I remind him and he knew he didn't have a defence.

"When you are ready. If you need a place for even some quiet, my office is always there for you."

"Like it was for Hannah?" I fire at him and I see him so taken back by my words. And that's where I decide to leave the conversation.

I run into the lunch room finally finding both Alex and Jessica sat together and I stop for a second to think about intruding.
They seem like a fucking couple.

And here comes Fallon Parker who's rumoured home wrecker to bust up another potential relationship.

Just brush past your thoughts Fallon.
I march forward as I sit myself down opposite both of them finally managing to successfully find Jess.

"Okay where the hell have you been?" I asked looking straight at Jess trying to figure out if I had done anything unintentionally wrong.

I wouldn't put it past me. Words fly out my mouth before I can even think about processing them sometimes.