Overdose

I am high in the sky and I am not sorry for it,
I am extremely happy, that right n' wrong things I forget.
I am in the club dancing to the most upbeat songs,
I have overdosed and you noticed my wrongs.

You look me in the eye and point out everything,
You say you are just concerned but already have to prejudice a thing.
You say "I should have known" when in fact I am lost in my forest of happiness,
You say you just did your part and I say you exactly did nothingness.

I cry every night thinking about the guilt inside me,
I blame myself for everything I did wrong from one to twenty.
I pity myself for not being able to be happy without causing any damage,
I overdose of guilt after Euphoria and that's my disadvantage.

I am sorry for being this way,
I want to be on an island to celebrate my after melancholy day.
I wish to be alone so I can live my definition of happiness and fun,
I wish to disappear in the midst of my ecstatic and forever be gone.

You are in a homeostatic; I am ecstatic,
You have your ways; I have my definition of aesthetic.
You have a dictionary; I have mine too,
However, Neither of these is wrong or true

You don't understand me? That's alright,
I don't make any sense? That's your insight.
Nevertheless, I cry in my prayers that sometimes you look through my lenses,
I cry in my sleep that you give me the warmth of acceptance and then take me back to my senses

For a better understanding of 𝗛𝗬𝗣𝗢𝗠𝗔𝗡𝗜𝗖 𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗢𝗥𝗗𝗘𝗥:
https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/21774-hypomania#:~:text=What%20is%20hypomania%3F,and%20be%20noticeable%20by%20others.

𝗡𝗼𝘁𝗲:
Mental illnesses are NOT general feelings like sadness or happiness. They are illnesses that should be treated with compassion and understanding.