Kim Chay

part 3:the effect it made

Kim pov ,
When I came back , I was really heart broken when I realized that chay had not seen me for even once , is he angry with me that much . It feels like I have ruin everything his innocence, his spark ,his smile , everything . I am really guilty for what I did . At least for once , but I have to tell him why I did everything clearly .
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Chay pov:
I really don't want to think about that person , I just want my mind to think about anything else than him so I decided to go to orphanage .
After all day when I came back and saw that everyone was still here Vegas , Pete , Macau and Venice . Vegas and kinn were carrying Venice and they both were trying to stop him from crying but they really don't know how to and hia and Pete were in kitchen cooking something for Venice . Although I am disturb right now but seeing them happy makes me happy . As soon as I walked in I saw Macau busy in his phone. "chay come here , pls calm him down , we are not at all able to control him ". Kinn said ."hey ven , come here baby , why are you crying . "I Said while carrying him in my arms . And suddenly he stopped crying . Vegas and kinn were shocked .hia said "see kinn I was telling you that he was scared from both of you and now when he saw a cute face of chay, he is normal . " Kinn said "ok , but I don't think that Vegas and I have that scary face . " "Yss and when we were child , we both were more cute than you both. "Vegas said while giving hi -fi to kinn. And we all laughed .
After dinner all were just chilling , and I went to the room and when I saw myself in the mirror and smiled . I was not able to see the chay I was , the smile is completely changed . I remember that my brother and my friends used to say that I have a very bright and healing smile . But what I see now is completely different . I was so depressed and it was so suffocating for me that I quickly ran towards terrace to see the stars and calm myself .

I was sitting in terrace while feeling the little cold breezes and tears roll down my cheeks . I know that no matter how much I hate that person but there was a time when I loved him . That night when I hugged him and slept with him . That morning exactly when I said him that all my luck's was just to be with him like that and right after that when I confessed him that I love him but now I understand why he didn't said anything when I asked that "do you love me pkim ". It hurts , it really hurt . Why do I have to stay here and see your face , why I can't go back to life were I was , totally happy with my brother and smiling Everytime . Why I have to live my life in this way .
"I want go away from here , away from everyone . " I said and cried .
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