Kim Chay

part 8 :Acting normal

Chay pov
I woke up and realized that everything is not same now. Everyone know abt what happened between Kim and me . I don't know what to do .  But I have to act very normal so that things will not convert into more worst . I went to orphanage after telling my brother.
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Kim pov
I  want to talk to him , I want to say sry to him for what I did but first I have to clear things with Porsche and  I have to tell him the truth . So I went to main family, as I entered I saw kinn "why are you here , do you still want to talk to chay  ,after what you did . " he said.
" I am here for Porsche. "
" You better don't go near him . If you do so , he is gonna kill you. "

" It's okay if he kill me ....". I went to Porsche office after saying this.

"May I come in ."

" Why are you here"  , he said while he was sitting on his chair.
" I want to talk to you about certain things." I said
" hmm , come" he said with a hell disappointed face.

" I am sry for what I did to chay "

" Don't you think that , you should say this to chay. "

"I want your help "

" What help "he said
" You Know that chay is very good at music, but he is opting medical field . I have already talked to teachers , they will give him one more chance for interview.but if I will say to him , he will deny,,,, but he will listen to you. Pls just bring him tommorow to university for interview. " I said

" Ok, but I have some questions for you. If you will answer me honestly, I will help."

"Do you love him?  " He asked and there was total silence after what he asked.

" Yes ..... "I said without any hesitation

"Then why did you left him?."

"Because I don't want him to be involved in this environment. "

" I want you to settle down the things that you destroyed. I Know that I am his brother but I can't solve this because chay still love you , I Know that he will not trust you now but he still loves you. I don't know what you will do , but bring my chay back to me , the chay he was. " He said and I was happy in my mind that he still loves me .

" But if you hurt him more , than I Will be the one to kill you , you got it.
He said

"Don't worry , I will  make him smile again . ...... Are you not mad at me. "

" I am but for now chay is the most important person. "

He said and then he said me to leave so I followed but then he stopped me and said
" Kim ..., promise me you will not hurt him anymore. "

"Yes, even I don't have the courage to make him cry now." I said and left.

When I left his room ,I felt like a burden was removed from my head , I can't believe that I literally expressed my feelings to Porsche ,, he is really a good person . 

Now I just want to talk to chay , no matter how much efforts I have to do , to make things better with him ,, I will really make him  to trust me.

So I went to his room , but when I entered , he was not there . I roamed around and saw the photos  of me in the table ,seems like he removed it from the wall.and when I saw the complete room I can't see my guitar anywhere.  I know that he is heart broken because of me and after realizing it , I was also disappointed. 

So I went to Porsche to ask that where is he, then he told me that he went to orphanage.
So I quickly went there.

When I entered there , I saw chay happily playing with those children's .
I was standing quietly and enjoying the heartwarming scene.
"Hey , Don't go in sun , it's hot there, " he said to a kid but he didn't listened so he followed him and carried him back .
" Hey chay , you also come back , the weather is equal hot for you tooo. " A boy said to him .

" Yes , nob , we are coming. " Chay said .
He gave water to chay and tissue to wipe up sweat.and I was shock to see this , why is he Soo close to chay.
" You should take care of yourself too."He said while tapping his head.
Chay was something to him but then he saw me.My happy mood was all gone now by seeing that boy.  I walked towards them .

" Hlo chay " I said
" pKim , why are you here." He said with a blank face.

"Who is this guy , chay " nob asked chay .
"He is a senior in my University." Chay said 
And those words where enough to make me feel worse. Senior , am I just senior to him.
"I want to talk to you chay" I said .
" Ok so you both carry on ,I will take care of kids . "

" pKim what do you want to talk about. " He asked normally without any expression.

" Chay I am sor...." I was about to speak when he said
" It's okay pKim , if you are here for saying sry ,, it's fine, " he said .I know that he is acting normal but he is not ,, I can see his eyes totally dried up because of yesterday's issue.
" Chay , I know that you are upset with me , and I deserve this. But pls don't stop yourself from being a musician. I know that you are leaving music becz of me but pls don't do it" .

Chay was blank and then he said " Kim I wanted to persue that career becz you were my ideal but then now that we don't have anything between us  and now what , we never had , after all it was just a lie  , and you are just senior for me now ,so pls just stay out of  my life. Pls , It's my request. "

I was just about to cry but I controlled myself. 
"Ok chay ,  you are right, that I don't have any right to say anything to you , but I have already talked to the professor, tommorow they will give you another chance for interview . Pls not for me but at least do it for your brother. "

I said  suppressing my feelings for him because at least till the enterview  , I don't want  him to be stressed about anything else. 
"Chay , I am really sorry for what I did. I really didn't mean it . Whatever reasons I will give to you for what I did will never be okay . I am really sorry." I said

" It's ok pKim, let it be . Let's just behave like nothing happened becz it's the only thing we can do . " He said and went away . 
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I went back to my apartment and tears escaped from my eyes . He is acting like nothing happened , like he never loved me , like we never met.
I don't want him to act normal . I want him to punch me for what I did . I want that cheerful chay back .