Passenger

1.3 Nerd.

What is the point of being the smartest boy at school? You just get bullied almost for everyone. You already know that I was popular at home. Somehow, in school it was the opposite.

I would not speak if you didn't ask me something. Why? Well I grew up with old people who used to say: kids don't speak. Better quite. Silent. If I did not do it, I would get a punch.

It was a problem because while everyone at school was scream or playing I just stayed on the corner seating and staring. Why? I have no idea. Trauma, probably.

Normally the teachers gave me instructions for doing different activities. While everyone were playing with toys I was writing or painting. They told I were special. What a stupid commentary.

I tried to meet some kids but they just did not want to play with me. Of course I did not feel bad. I was a kid I did not understand that. Why? I do not know and I do not care anymore.

All my primary I was the nerd. The geek. The smartest boy. But I was not. I just did not have time to play or something like that at school. I just ate books or played writing letters in my books.

I got one friend at 4th grade. She was a nerd, too. A nice girl kind and weird if you ask me. Somehow, after one year at school, she changed completely. She became a bad student and popular. She left school in 5th. Of course I missed her, but she and I were not that close at that moment.

Do you know what is the only good thing here? Nobody ever bullied me. I mean there were bad commentaries like: weirdo, nerdo. You know, those normals commentaries. Probably they are bad for your mind, but the physical pain is bad at that age. Even worse if you are skinny and have nothing of strength.

Why did I said it just get you bullying? Well, verbal bullying is important too. But when I started high school is when I knew what physical bullying is worse.