Ha... I'm more than that. More than anyone will ever know, only one person knows my full story and who I am. And she is so special. I just wish she could see it.
I'm stuck under ice. At least that's how it feels, I'm drowning as I watch her. And I say everything that she needs to hear but she doesn't listen she says she understands but she doesn't. She really doesn't see it. And every time she just blows it off above her head making those excuses I sink deeper and deeper into the abyss.
Maybe one day the excuses will stop, maybe one day she'll be able to fill that abyss. Maybe one day... But for now and the rest of my life if she sticks with this... I'm fine to be alone forever. I fear dying alone but if I have to... If she doesn't see it ever... I'm fine dying alone.
