𝐋𝐚𝐬 𝐍𝐞𝐯𝐚𝐝𝐚𝐬 //Quackity x reader (Discontinued)

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I could be good

I could be good for him

I could show him how good I can be

I can show him as long as he leaves my skin untouched and my body not bruised. As long as he lets me go outside and feel the air on my face. If he wants a good girl I can turn it on. For him. If he wants an obedient pet I can live up to his expectations as long as he leaves Tommy alone. I can tell him I love him I can tell him I miss him when he's not home but would I be lying? I lie awake at night resting my head on a cold pillow those nights hes not in the penthouse. Craving his body next to me. Holding me. Not tightly but enough to feel his body against me. Craving me as much as I crave him. Is this love? Or is it some fucked up illusion. I don't dwell on the thought to much as quackity bursts through the door.

"Fucking wilbur" I hear him mumble . Wilbur?

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"If this elections goes wrong I'm not sure if I want to see l'manburg being ruled under another"
Wilbur softly wispers to me. We sat above the walls looking downs at our beautiful nation. Tomorrow was the election where Wilbur among 3 other candidates would test for power over our nation we built. The sun was setting and everyone was getting ready to turn in for the night. Tommy and Tubbo had stopped terrorising Niki and gone to bed. Jack was doing his nightly patrol around the gates before he too would go to sleep. I looked over at Wilbur.

"What?"

"Y/n. You're my dearest friend I'd even go as far to consider you my sibling. If this doesn't go right tomorrow I don't want you to see everything I have built for us to go to waste, down the drain. We all know that if I don't win lmanburg won't be lmanburg."

"Let's hope you win" I chuckled. Wilbur smiled softly not at me but he did. We looked over our great nation where i helped build refuge for me and Tommy aswell as others. Tommy was happy here. I was happy here. I didn't want to see that disappear. I was scared for sure scared that this all may crumble but I wouldn't let Wilbur see that. We needed courage. And besides. Wilbur was bound to win. Wasn't he?

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My ears where ringing and my eyes wher glues shit. I held my hands over my ears so it would all go away.

I wanted it to go away.

It didn't go away.

I held Tommy close to me and he sobbed in my chest. Wilbur was the one who helped me raid Tommy. He taught me how to be responsible and how to look after him when my parents couldn't and then when they died. Now he was gone. What was I meant to do.

The world paused for a second. A second. A split moment in time I let myself imagine that he was here and we where in lmanburg. Tommy was with Tubbo causing trouble. Niki was baking. Jack was yelling at Tommy for dragging Tubbo into said trouble. Will was in the van with Fundy working out new plans for Lmanburgs future and I.

I was happy.

For a split moment in time I was happy.

That all came crashing down when everything "unpaused" everything moved quickly. Too fast. I wanted it too. Slow down. If I where die now I would be happy with everything I had witnessed. The smiles the laughs. But I didn't. I got up and moved on.

Everyone did.
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I liked to keep the good memories of Wilbur. The ones towards the end where bad. Mean. Bitter. He was untrustworthy and cruel. Psycho . I had Niki help me and support me and I helped her and supported her. She was my rock that help me down until I had decided that I needed change. I couldn't be stuck living in bad memories. Memories of the bad Wilbur. So I got a Job at a Casino that gave me money to afford a small but decent apartment. Where I could raise Tommy the way Wilbur taught me too. It was sad but i needed it. I need to move far away and just. Forget.

So I spent nights working and working and then I would spend the day with Tommy. He was my rock. Not Wilbur not Niki. Tommy. Maybe it always was him. But I knew that no one in my life was as important as my brother and I would do everything in my power to keep him safe.

So I did.
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Tommy was panicking and I was running around our apartment gathering things for him. If quackity was coming for me then he was coming for Tommy. I had to find someone. Someone trustworthy who I knew would take care of him. I quickly scribbled down and address And gave it to Tommy. I hugged him and cried then sent him out then Cried even more.

Niki.

Niki would take care of him.

I sent him to Niki.

A/n I got my motivation and inspiration. Hope everyone's doing well. Tell me what's going on in your life right now! How have things been going? <3 (also not edited! Please correct my mistakes and I will edit them!)