Never alone

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pixie pov

I woke up realizing that it was still me I mean this happened with Dix once and Charli wasn't happy with her I mean they aren't always on good terms

I got dressed in a pastel purple jumper that came down to my thighs and I put on some jeans with some converse I don't want to go school today but I need to I've missed so much and with Noah questioning my whereabouts all the time I just can't stay off school

I go downstairs and get my breakfast prepped and pour myself a glass of   orange juice and I eat my oatmeal which I enjoy and I take my medication so that I don't change I mean my emotions are really bad so it's fine I won't change because I was the reason why I made Dix go back and I came out it's always my fault I guess

When this happens I feel alone all the time because I know that Dix and dixie won't talk because they just want to let me be which I get but it scares me to be alone

I grab my bag and start to walk to school entering the gates was scary knowing the last time I was in was when I had a panic attack in front of Noah and that Liam had made fun of me

But I just walk on and go to my locker and grab my art supplies and walk to art I just want to get the lesson over I like art I know but not when I'm in school for it I just want to draw what I want but I chose this so it's my fault I sit at a desk and my stuff ready on the desk

After about two minutes of me just sitting there, people started to pile in the room and the teacher followed behind shutting the door and getting started on the lesson what I did realize was that Noah was sitting beside me to the left and Blake was sat to my right but I just spaced out.

What we were doing in the lesson was we had to draw an animal that we like and make it look interesting and draw their habitats which isn't  really what I like to draw but if it means I get to pass the exam then I can put up with it also when I'm in school I tend to draw happy drawing which I do like sometimes but  anyway the animal I decide I want to draw is a koala on a tree eating a leaf I finished the sketch but I might have to come back at lunch to finish it only needs the coloring which I will use watercolors  because I just want to get it finished now and I don't have anything better to do

I started to clean up my place and put things away and pack my bag and walk to the next lesson, yeah I didn't speak to anyone because I want to be left alone but that was my wish but my wishes never come true

the walk to English was horrific but walking into the class was the worst, everyone stared at me and when they know it was me they snicker or laugh or just whisper comments about me which I hate but I can't do anything about it

I sit at my desk and Noah has just walked in and sat next to me

Noah: hey pixie I missed you it feels like forever since I have seen you

Pixie: well I had to take a few days off and reset my mind

Noah: also I met your sisters and yeah they are alright I liked speaking to dixie but me and dix we have our differences

In my mind, I was thinking I already know but try not to make it obvious really

Pixie: yeah I heard some rumors, but you know, I don't like to ask

I put my head down and grab my pencil case out of my bag with a small notebook which is for me to doodle in, to be honest

I could hear people quieten down which means the teacher has walked in he started the lesson and it was pretty easy I love English and I also knew what we were doing