Eddie Munson X y/n

The Diary

this story contains( mention SH, suicidal thoughts, drugs, cussing, sex)

I woke up feeling sick, you ran to the bathroom and threw up everything from last night, I couldn't remember anything after you got home, you brushed your teeth and took a shower and went to my room, I put on sweat pants and a oversized hoodie, I walked downstairs stumbling to the kitchen, everyone looked at me, Eddie looked concerned, so did Jace, Steven, and James

"why is everyone looking at me like I did something wrong" Jace was the first to speak "you blacked out last night, and apparently told Eddie to fuck you" you could feel a knot of guilt growing in my stomach "Eddie I am so sorry, I don't remember anything but if I blacked out it must have been bad, i'm sorry if I did anything to any of you, and I understand if you don't wanna be around me after all that" Eddie spoke "we got back and you stared to snort shit, and drink, and smoke, after a while Jace told you that he has something for you to try" Jace interrupted him " I shouldn't have gave it to you, i'm sorry" Eddie continue "you went up and got changed, you came back down with my, I help you get changed you were already fucked up, but we got back and you snorted coke, we continue to smoke and drink, you tried to strip told us you did it as a job and we decided that it was enough so I took you up, you told me to fuck you but instead I put you to bed"

tears formed in you eyes, not wanting to be there, you ran to your room and got a little book out on it said "THE DIARY" you stated to write and then released it had been 2 hours

what the book said
"dear diary, I blacked out last night, Jace and Eddie told me what happened, sometimes I wonder if i'm a fuck up, why I do the shit I do, i've tried loving myself but I just can't seem to see a beautiful girl, all I see is a girl that is struggling, sometimes I wonder if anyone would miss me if I did commit, if anyone would remember Y/F/M/L/N, if anyone would release that I was gone, i've tried not to harm myself but it didn't work, , I took a lighter to my thigh, I found out I like Eddie a lot, but I feel bad that he seems he has his life together and then theres me, I hate life I hate this feeling,
end of book

I heard a knock on my door and it slowly opened, it was Eddie, "hey how ya feeling" he has a little smile and his hands behind his back "not good, and again sorry for last night" he walked up to me putting a little box in front of me, I looked at him confused but he motioned me to open it so I did, in the box there was a little letter address to me in a handwriting I didn't recognize, "whats this??" he just sat on my bad looking at me, I opened it and it said.
y/n
Jace told me about how your struggling with everything and I want you to know you can talk with me, I understand how alone you can feel when your thoughts get to you, or how the voices over power them, but I wanted to tell you
I like you y/n, I hope you'll say yes to what i'm about to ask,
y/n will you go out with me please like on a date, as my girlfriend??

you looked at him and got up and sat beside him, "Eddie, thats a big job dating me, I overthink, I think the worst will happen all day every day" he cut me off "and i'll be here when you need me, i'll reassure you that everything will be ok, that everyone is to" as he ended his sentence I grabbed his face pulling our lips together, "listen princess, as long as i'm here nothing will ever bother you, understand" you said yes and hugged him tightly, he kissed my head and laid me back "E-Eddie" he laid beside me snuggling me, I put my head in his chest and we both drifted off

I woke up with an uncomfortable yet pleasing feeling, I noticed Eddie was gone, I felt something wet push into my entrance, I lifted the covers up to see Eddie, I moaned as he continue to fuck me with his tongue, next thing I know, I came all over him and the bed, he kept going letting me ride out my high then coming up to me "sorry darling you was squirming and painting so I thought I would help you" he kissed you, you hummed as you tasted yourself on his lips, he pulled away "Eddie, I need you, I want you" thats all he needed, he ripped his boxers off and slammed into you, it's like something was sucking the air out of your lungs, your bed hit the wall, skin slapping against one another, "E-Eddie I-I" he started to held your neck lightly, making you look at him "come on sweetheart say what you want" you looked at him trying to get the words out "faster please!!" he did as you said, your back arched, eyes rolling in the back of your head

"f-fuck princess you feel so good, you like that, you like when i'm balls deep in your pussy" tears started running down you face, cries of pleasure "yes fuck, you feel amazing, please don't stop i'm almost there" he moaned you name which was a shocker for you, no man has ever said you name dearing sex, but also no one has made you feel this way, full, exhausted but yet still wound up, "fuck princess I-i'm gonna" you kissed him it was sloppy but full of love, "me to Eddie" he's thrusts got sloppy after a few more minutes "princess do you want me to pull out or" you struggled to speak "I want to feel you inside me please" with that both of you came,

he laid there there for a minute still in you, he tried to pull out but you didn't want him to, "Eddie please don't, I wanna feel full for a little while longer please" he giggled a bit and turned you both on your side, putting your leg over him, he pushed back into you making you moan a little, he held you and both drifted off again sleeping till the morning not wanting to let go of each other

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