The lights raining yellow grief on the cold gray pavemen, gleaming from the tears of the sky. The whispers from the demons stalking my every move. The rain carressing my cold, pale skin and kisses my tear swollen eyes. The darkness of twilight on this endless and wretchid journey to self indulgence.
My thoughts racing back and forth on the train in my mind. Emptiness devours my ligaments and bones, clawing at my soft pink flesh. My purple streaked hair drenched by the rain
" Dont think about it. Donth think about it!" is all my simple and ignorant mind could tell myself to keep from collapsing on the highway. "It doesnt matter." The lies only add to the weight of the bricks i carry.
" Just keep walking, dont look back!" the advice is precarious to my delusional and paranoid thoughts. My thoughts linger back to all thats been done to try and prevent this misery... All a waste...
I collapse on the side of the road and curl up like a helpless and victimized creature. I just couldnt take all the conflicting emotions.
Pain, misery, and depression all wrapped up with a bow on top of it. I feel my core crumbling and feel i could explode with razors at every word i say. Regrets cut open my heart with black tar seeping out of the wound.
Improsined by the past with knives stabbing my internal organs. I slowly get up and start to run... I dont know where ill go, anywhere is better, maybe i tried outrunning the pain. That was the last they heard of the baby's breath glowing heart, and the man eating roses he carried with him..........
