The love I have been hiding

Overthinking

Iwaizumis pov

Tooru, the guy who I have been my whole life with. From the first time, I met him I always felt something strange in me. Maybe it was jealousy or simply a sigh of love, but I couldn't find out till now. When I look at him he is always surrounded by girls, he wanted what he said from the start. From the beginning, he was always the centre of attention usually with ladies, even at his birth he was surrounded by female nurses who rant about how charming Tooru was. Not to mention my mom. She was a great friend of Mss. Oikawa.

They used to chat a lot and left us to play together. To be honest, he was pretty handsome and charming but the real Tooru who I have known for years isn't what they say he is. He is annoying, gets lost easily, is an ugly crier, and is shy but still. when we were children, He always told me he would marry me, so I didn't think of it as love but as a joke plus he looks more attracted to girls than boys. Not now that I want to marry him.

We went to in same high school. Now that I have known him for so long, I introduce volleyball to him till then he was made a strong passion for it than mine. In middle school, he was the captain I was proud of him .. very much and even now he is the captain. I knew that he was lonely even tho he is annoying. He lives with his mother and sister who has a child, his father went abroad and never come back leaving his mother alone with two children. He did everything to make his mother proud of him and he succeeded.

I know it is rough but felt like I am the only one who could understand him. I felt like he should only be seen by me and only me. At this time I felt both jealous and falling in love. Yes, I was jealous ... jealous of those fangirls. I wanted to punch every single one of them. It is not like I would admit it. But I think I fell in love with him all these years. I always had dreams about him. His brown eyes with tears, his perfectly curled hair a little messy, my hand caring his face as he tilted his head to feel my touch and when he screamed my name as I release- what the fuck am I thinking, he is just my fucking best friend and maybe he is fucking straight too. If he finds out about it and rejects me he probably won't see me as a friend too. It will ruin our friendship as well.

I- I can not handle this. Th-this is suffocating me.

I-

Fuck

Fuck

FUCK

I angrily started pulling my hair in frustration. "Iwaizumi" I looked up he saw a similar boy with brown eyes, and curly hair, with a volleyball in his hand. "I am calling you for ages. Go do 40 push-ups, run 3 times around the courtroom, and do 20 squats as you just sit here doing nothing as a team even finish morning exercise." I was still shocked that he called me iwaizumi and not iwa-chan as he usually does so, I think that it was better to just follow his order and not argue with him even tho Oikawa gave me a little too much work but I still did it anyway.

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