Life Without You

HER PAIN

This chapter is all about Sai's pain what she has gone through...
Kindly read it completely...

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'Aur to aur Omi kaka ne to ye bhi keh diya ki mere aaba ne aapko jaan bhuj kar fasaya hai...

Mujhe kabhi samajh nahi aaya ki wo log mujhse itni nafrat kyu karte the.... Ek 19 saal ki anath ladki ne unke sath aisa bhi kya kar diya tha jo mere sath unhone janwaro se bhi bura bartav kiya... Or sone pe suhaga... Apki lover..
Unhone to hamesha hi aag me ghee dalne ka kaam kiya hai... '  she said...

'Jab hamara rishta thoda sa normal hua to phir aapne mujhe ghar se nikal diya or uske baad apko goli lagi... Uske liye bhi aapke parivaar walo ne mujhe ho blame kiya.... Phir hamara rishta normal hua to aapne mujhe characterless bol diya.... Aap apni fried se ghar, cafe , bedroom, police station me mil sakte hai... Hatho me hath daal kar baith sakte hai lekin mera friend meri help bhi nahi kar sakta...

Waise kar bhi kya sakte hai jo khud Jaisa hota hai usse samne wala bhi waisa hi lagta hai... ' said Sai...

'Phir wo Mahabaleshwar trip.... Waha aapki yoga teacher ne to tay kar liya tha ki aapko aur aapki lover ko best couple award dilwa kar rahegi.... Phir wo anniversary surprise..

Yes.... Par let me be clear again waha apki galati thi... Aapne to iss shaadi ko deal bana diya tha phir kyu wo anniversary ka natak aur agar aap mujhse pyaar karte the to kya aapke muh me dahi jam gaya tha....

Sirf 3 words the... I LOVE YOU... itna bolne ka aapko time nahi mila ye to ek bahana tha...' she said

'Aur phir mera accident.... Mimo drama....
Jab mujhe thoda sa apni feelings ki clarity mili to aapki ek aur bhabhi aa gayi ye phir ye bolu ki muh boli biwi aa gayi...

Ek baat batao aapko bhabhi bolne se koi allergy hai... Kabhi bhai ki biwi... Kabhi dost ki biwi ....yaar ussi ko bhabhi bolte hai...

Yaha to chote bacche bhi apni friend ki crush ko bhabhi bolte hai aur aap unko naam se bulate hai... ' she said...

'Uss samay bhi galati meri nahi thi aapki thi phir bhi aapke ghar walo ne mujhe hi blame kiya... Aur aapne to koi kasar nahi chori mujhe andar se todne ki... Ussi time mujhe ye bhi ehsaas hua ki ek saas kabhi maa nhi ban sakti...
Galati sab ki thi par.... Sabne apni galatiyo ka thikra mere sar pe phod diya... ' she said...

He felt guilty for his actions...

'Aur uske baad ka to main kya hi bolu meri zindagi ke sabse hasin pal or meri zindagi ke sabse kharab pal wahi the....
Mujhe aapse pyaar ka ehsaas hua.... Hamari deal wali shaadi dil wali shaadi me badli...phir mein pregnant hui but thanks to your lover mera baccha mujhe chin gaya....usne phir bechari banne ka natak kiya or mera baccha mujhse chin kar aapne usse de diya...

Ek baat bataiye Virat agar aapki lover ki jagah mera koi dost hota or wo akele pan me suicide karta to kya aa usse hamare ghar me rakh kar usse hamare bacche ka pita bana dete.... Nahi na...To phir...

Aapko mujhpe zara si bhi daya nahi aayi ki ek ladki jo bina maa ke pali badi ho or phir jab usse khud maa banne ka saubhagya mila to aapse ye bhi nahi dekha gaya... ' she continued....

Her each word was making him more guilty.... It was getting hard for him to breath...

'Aapko pta hai jab mujhe pta chala ki main pregnent hu.... To mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki mujhe khush hona chahiye ya uddas... Khushi iss baat ki Baapa ne mujhe jeene ki wajah di...or dukh iss baat ka ki iss bacche ko apne baap ka pyaar nahi mil payega.... ' she said...

He wanted to know more about her past.....
How she faced the everything alone...

'Sai... Tum kerala kaise aayi?? ' he asked...

'Aapko kya karna hai jaan kar..... ' she huffed in anger...

'Pta hai main na ghar chorne ke baad apni friend Chhavi ke ghar gayi thi...waha mujhe apni pregnancy ke baare me pta chala..... Chhavi ne mujhe bataya ki kerala ke ek hospital se usse offer aaya hai... Usne mujhse try karne ko kaha... Maine bhi socha ki ye idea accha main aap logo se bhut dur chali jaungi.... Phir main yaha aa gayi... Main jab yaha aayi to mera purse chori ho gaya.....jisme mere paise,phone or mera debit card tha....mere paas bilkul bhi paise nahi the.... Kisi tarah yaha din guzar gaya.... Par raat ko bhut weak feel ho raha tha.... Phir achanak main beech road pe behosh ho gayi thi... Tab Rahul ki amma mujhe apne ghar le kar gayi or mera khayal rakha.... Jab tak Savi paida nahi hui unhone mujhe kaam nahi karne diya bilkul apni beti ki tarah rakha..... Phir Savi jab thodi badi hui to maine unke ghar ke samne ek flat le liya.... Par 2 saal pehle unki death ho gayi... ' she said and burst into tears....

TBC....

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