Notes and letters (han jisung x reader)

What a day

Chapter twenty-three

Hans pov:

I sat up and grabbed a shirt and walked over to the door, I open the door and it's Felix, Hyunjin and Chan "oh hey guys" I flashed a smile "why is your hair so messy" Hyunjin asks "oh Um- I had a nap... anyway what's up practice isn't for another hour" I say "we wanted to go for food together before practice does y/n wanna come?" Chan adds "I can ask one sec" I let them inside "y/n!" I shout "one sec!" They yelled back

Y/ns pov:

Jisung shouted my name but I haven't finished putting my clothes back on fuck fuck fuck! I ran outside after fixing myself a bit.

Hans pov:

"Oh hey guys" they waved, the guys waved back "wanna come for food" Felix asks "sure" they smiled "y/n I need to talk to you about something" Felix says and they walk away, I wonder what that's about "I don't believe you had a nap to be honest" Hyunjin says analyzing me "what else would I have been doing" "y/n" Chan and Hyunjin say at the same time, we laughed "how do you know that huh?" I asked "messy hair random ass shirt that you weren't wearing before sweat um what else" Hyunjin lists "how long it took y/n to come outside" he adds "wow- goddamn" I laughed "we've got a fucking Sherlock Holmes in stray kids now" Chan laughs.

Y/ns pov:

"What's up?" I asked "I want to make sure your ok you know since that walk we hade a few weeks maybe even a month ago" he says "um I've been alright" I say "you sure?" He asks "yup" I add "ok then what did you eat for breakfast?" He asks. Shit. "Um... toast" I slowly say "yea no that's jail time activities you could never eat plain toast tell 'em the truth" he demands "ok fine my eating has cut down it feels different not being at home I still feel the need to be perfect and pretty even tho I don't have mom creeping down my neck" I explained "you realize han loves you for the real you right he loves your stupid ass laugh and snorts you make, he loves to silly faces you make and when you steal his clothes" Felix says... wow really "actually?" I asked "yea he talks so highly of you" he adds. A smile was painted over my face "now let's go eat, is everyone ready!" Felix says the boys nod and we make our way to chans car.

Hans pov:

I had Hyunjin on my left and y/n on my right Chan was driving and Felix was in the front seat "was I right?" Hyunjin whispered to me "sure" I whispered back. He laughed, still wondering how the fuck he figured that out.

We got down to a restaurant and sat at a table "is anyone else coming or just us?" Y/n asks "they didnt want to come" Chan says "oh ok" they say, I feel like there's more to this. We ate our lunch and paid our bill then made our way to the studio, why wouldn't they want to come we always have lunch together. We pulled into the parking lot and walked into the building, y/n grabbed my hand I looked at them and smiled "can you guys wait here one sec" Hyunjin asks and Him Felix and Chan walked into the studio "what the fuck is going on" y/n whispered "I don't know" I laughed "I feel like there gonna dump paint or some shit on us" they laughed "honestly... I could see that" I chuckled, Felix walks out "ok come in" he says.

We walked in to a bunch of food and balloons and a sign that says congratulations "awwwwww" y/n smiles, I was surprised they didn't have to but it's really sweet of them "thank you guys" I smiled "I would give hugs and shit but good" I walk over to the food laying on the table ".... WOW!" Chan says as his arms sit there empty "here I'll give you a hug" y/n says "thank you" he laughs, we eat some food "wait did we not actually have practice today was it just for this?" I ask ".... Maybe" Minho replies "who's idea was it that's what I wanna know" Y/n turns "mine of course who else would it be" Hyunjin says "of course" they laughed.

Y/ns pov:

I love these guys so much I love jisung so much! My life feels a lot better now that I'm not with my parents, I can't believe hiding my emotions has worked that shouldn't be a flex but I don't care I've managed to not make anyone think I'm fucked in the head especially jisung. I don't want him worrying about me he already has his own problems, I was thinking this drifting off away from the group fully zoned out "Y/N!!!" Felix claps his hands in front of my face "oh!" I jumped "you ok you zoned out" I.N asks "yea I'm fine" I smile "who wants seconds" I say to steer the conversation away from me "OOOO I DO" Jisung jumped "ME PLEASEEEE" Changbin smiles. It worked!

I'm scared to show more sides of me, even though there Felix's friends and I'm dating Jisung it's not easy Jisung saw me in high school but not now, I've changed a lot. Enough for them to not know a lot about me not even Felix hell they just found out only a few weeks ago that I'm a streamer. What if I acted differently and he didn't like it, Maybe some day I'll talk but not today, my brain is telling me to wait till I can fully trust everyone.

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