Misunderstanding [ Ni-Ki Enhypen Fanfiction ]

Ch 1 : New life begin

[ Jieun as a reader ]

>JIEUN'S POV

The coldness in the room kept me awake, even though I was wearing a very thick sweatshirt but the cold really felt to the bone . I'm starting to get headache after waking up from a short nap

My belly rumbled because I haven't eaten yet from this morning but the problems is I have no appetite to eat even a little . I feel very exhausted and I have no energy to do anything

I turned my gaze to the body lying in front of me . There's also an ventilator and oxygen machine beside her . I held her cold's hand , stroking her hand slowly to warm her

She was still unconscious from the last night which made me very worried about her . However , the doctor told me that she needed enough rest after being given anesthesia and sleeping pills so I don't have to worry that much

I stared at her that was enduring the pain although she was seen sleeping peacefully there

"Mom .. do you hear me ? " My voice cracked , I don't know how I feel but my heart shattered right now

I held her hand tightly in my grasp , hoping that she can hear me right now

" I have something to ask you , mom .. " I said while hold on to the urge to cry

" Why don't you tell me all about this ? Do you need to keep it as a secret ? " I said with my trembling voice

But then I froze when I can feel her hand holding  and grabbing onto my hands slowly . Her touch made me automatically feel a little calm

She's awake , slowly opened her eyes and took a deep breath with the aid oxygen that has been provided . The first things she did was look right at my face , then smiled . But just a weak smile

" Ji.. Eun ah "

" Mom ? " I said as I quickly wiped my tears then hugged her slowly

" Why .. do you cry honey ? Are you okay ? " She asked while she stroked my hair . Her voice as weak as the winds

I feel like hot tears start streaming again down my eyes and wiped it quickly . Then I threw a smile at her because I knew mom didn't like to see me shed a tears in front of her because if I was sad she would feel the same too . I want her to feel better so that I won't feel guilty

I laughed slowly and shakes my head

" No , I— I'm just glad that you're awake because I feel lonely without hearing your voice " I said as I pouted

She then smiled at me as a response . She looked around the entire ward room and questioned me

" Where's your dad ? "

I automatically shut my mouth and raised my shoulder give a sign that I don't know because I know all he cares about is his work than anything else 

Is he here to take care of mom ? Did he visit mom even for a moment ? No . He's not

Selfish ? Yes that's him

Suddenly , door of the ward room knocked from the outside, mom turned her gaze towards the door and looked at me

" Ji Eun, I picked you up here . Are you done ? Visiting time is also over " Dad came in and walked towards me

" Don't forget that you need to go to school early tomorrow " He patted my shoulder and said so

I shakes my head and sighed " Mom , I don't wanna go to school . I want to take care of you . Please ? " I begged mom and hugged her tightly

I didn't even look at my dad and and still gave a pleadingly look at mom . Mom shakes her head slowly towards me 

" Don't worry about me , honey . I'm fine . There's a doctor who take care of me here and even your dad " Mom tried to persuade me . She then turned her gaze to dad then looked at me again

" You know what it would be if you didn't hear what your mom said , right ? " Dad's horizontal voice make me no other choice . I became silent for awhile but then just nod even when I don't want to go home

I sighed heavily . Why does he seems to act like he is my bodyguard ?

Without a word to said , I'm getting up from sitting down on the chair and kissed mom on her cheeks . I took all my stuff , my bag that was on the couch and getting ready to left the ward

As I wanted to left , mom immediately stopped my steps

"See you tomorrow after school . I love you my sweetie "

I nod and smiled before going home

" I love you too , mom "

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The sun's rays began to hit my eyes when I woke up . And it took me a few minutes to widen my eyes . I rubbed my eyes slowly and it's swelling too much

" You're awake " a voice startled me even though I already know who is it . I'm still lying on my bed . Feel so weak like a living corpse

I looked to the figure standing beside me with my sleepy eyes . He took a frame of the picture that I had been hugging while I was asleep and put it on the table next to my bed

The frame of a little girl smilling happily while she holding onto someone's hand . It's actually a picture of me when I was 9 with mom who was still in her 30s at the time

" Please get ready . We will leaving to visit your mom this morning " Then my room door closed as soon as he came out of my room

Dad's cold voices made the situation a bit tense and awkward although I'm used to it every time and everyday 

I sighs and got up from my bed , rubbed my eyes with a sore face before get into the bathroom to get ready before leaving

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The red rose I put on the vase filled with water , then I give a full bowed as a sign of respects . There was a small frame of picture that I knew were smilling beautifully as she were welcoming me standing in front of her tomb

It's been a month . .

May 1 , 1978- January 12 , 2022

In Loving Memory Of Kim EunSeo

This will be forever engraved on the tombstone

" Mom .. " I kneeled down on the ground as I wiped my tears that fillings my eyes

" I miss you so much " I managed to say , my voice cracked and I can't control my sadness

For honestly , I still can't accept the fact that she is no longer with me at this young age

" I'm sorry .. " I sobbed

" I know that you hate to see me crying like this in front of you , but I can't mom "

" How can I live without you by my side ? " I managed to say with a cracked voice

" I have nobody but only you ... you know that right ? " My voice trembling

" Am I not deserve to live happily like the others ? " I said and paused . Swallowing the lump in my throat then sighed heavily

Yes , maybe I don't really deserve to be happy like anyone e—

" Why do you say something like that ? "

" How can you say that you can't live happily as anyone else ? " A voice startled me and I look to that one figure standing behind me and handing me a blue handkerchief