And everything went red. || Iida angst

I lost? [Iida POV]

TW: Thoughts of Violence, murder, and torture

I was more or less staring at Kaminari, he wasn't doing anything, so neither was I. I felt really tired. I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. To stop thinking about him. He's gone. My hero. My brother.

He's dead. And I cannot take it out on Stain, because he's in the hospital from the fight with Me, Midorya, and Todoroki. The only thing that makes sense about that disgusting thing is his name. He's nothing but a Stain on this earth. He deserves nothing less than the worst. I've never thought about killing someone as much as I have thought about killing him. I smiled. I found joy from thinking about how many ways he could die. Or could have died in our fight. Maybe a doctor will see how horrible he is and 'accidentally' pull the plug. He deserves more than death. He deserves to be beaten to near death and then healed and just have that repeating for the rest of his sad life. He will never be anything more than a useless villain. A worthless, disgusting, useless, pathetic villain. I hope he dies. Alone and In pain. Just like Tensei did.

As I'm thinking about how many ways Stain could be in his own personal hell, I hear Bakugou Scream something. I couldn't tell what he yelled. My head was already fuzzy as it is.

I turn and look at Bakugou, he's laying on the ground and Kirishima is standing above him, Bakugou had a somewhat menacing energy to him now. He seemed angrier than usual.

Suddenly I felt something painful pulse through my entire body, and the next thing I know, everything went black.

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When I had awoken, There was still some people fighting, but I was sitting on a bench, My head was in someone's lap, I look up to see Todoroki, That's a surprise, although Todoroki is a great friend I wouldn't expect him to seem so caring.

Todoroki must've noticed I woke up and smiled, only for a second, but I noticed. "Welcome back" he said. I nod and try sitting up, Todoroki has me lay back down. I look up at him confused. "Stay for a bit, I want to make sure your okay." He said softly. I blink.

"Okay" I say quietly, and let my eyes drift shut again for a few seconds, before positioning myself so I can watch the fight, Uraraka and Tsu were going against Ojiro and Hagakure.

In the end Uraraka and Tsu had won, they both fought amazingly though. My classmates are so gifted. I sometimes wonder how I got into U.A. when watching stuff like this.

I guess everyone had sparred since Aizawa clasped his hands together and said. "Alright everyone, time to go back inside"

Everyone made their way inside. Everyone seemed happy that they got to show off. And I just stood there. Not able to think about anything but Him. The thoughts rise up again and I feel sick because of it. I've never had such horrible thoughts for so long before. I want them to go away. I really just want my mind to be clear. I don't want to think about it anymore. I don't want to think about Him anymore. I don't want to think about anything anymore. Of course, that will not work. The more you try to force a thought out, the more that thought will force it's way in.

I lost, and I'm still losing. I lost the most important thing for me. I lost. I lost Tensei, I lost the sparring match, and I would've lost against Stain if Midorya and Todoroki didn't save me.

I will never be anything compared to anyone. I will always be in someone's shadow. I should have died. Not Tensei.