And everything went red. || Iida angst

Aftermath[Iida's POV]

After the training the bell rang and it was time for lunch.

I walked to lunch with Midorya, Todoroki, Uraraka, Tsu, Tokoyami, and Aoyama. I sat between Todoroki and Midorya and Across from Aoyama who was sat between Tokoyami and Uraraka, sitting next to Uraraka was Tsu.

I had beef stew in front of me, but I wasn't eating or talking as much as I would, normally if I was down I'd at least try to take it but I don't have the energy right now.

"You okay Iida?" Todoroki asked me, I blink for a bit confused "Hm?" I ask. "Are you okay?" He repeated. I wave my hand in a dismissive manner "Yeah! I'm okay Todoroki, do not worry about me. as class president I should be worrying about you all more than anything." I said with a small smile.

A small forced smile. 'I don't have the energy right now.' yeah right. I would do anything to hide how horrible I'm feeling right now. why do I have to be like this? I'm so tired but I keep trying to put others before me. it makes me sick. I don't want to do that right now. I want to cry. I want to scream. I want everyone to know how bad I am hurting. but still.. I worry about them more than I do myself. it's sickening.

"Okay Iida... if you ever need to talk we're all here for you." Todoroki said softly. I nod with a small smile before looking away, the second I do my smile drops which only gathers more suspicion.

But at least it wasn't going too bad. It could be going a lot worse right now-
oh. Monoma. Great.

Monoma comes up to our table with a smug smile. "Well if it isn't class 1-A. The inferior version of 1-B!" He said with a wide smile. Most of the table rolls their eyes. Monoma noticed this and looked for someone at the table to take it out on, great. just what is needed right now. to hear one of my friends get taunted. how annoying. "Iida. How's your brother doing by the way? Of course 1-A would have a hero related to them that would get hurt by such a lousy Villain."

I tense. Did I hear him right? I don't even care if I did. How dare he. I stand up, glaring at him. "what did you just say?" My voice is a lot quieter than normal and I sounded threatening. I noticed Monoma freeze and look at me nervously. I don't care that he's afraid right now.

I step closer to him. "Say it again." I said sharply, My composure threatening to crumble. Monoma looked away and stuttered "Well I just- I didn't mean it like- I just-" That's when he suddenly fell, being caught by Kendo with a smile. "Sorry about that. I really need to keep a better eye one hi-" She noticed how angry I was, and I know the rest of the people at my table noticed too. "What did.. What did he say?" Kendo asked nervously.

I shook my head before smiling and standing up straight. You're fine. it doesn't matter what he says. you're fine. you're fine. it's okay. don't lose composure. I'm fine. It's okay. I'm okay. He didn't mean it. He didn't.. He..

"It's fine He-.. he didn't mean it." I could feel tears threatening to spill from my eyes, I closed them so no one noticed and smiled a bit wider. "Excuse me. I'll be right back." Trying my best to keep my voice from cracking before walking away. That walk turning into a sprint once out of sight. I ran into the bathroom and locked myself in one of the stalls, shaking violently. I cover my mouth so no sobs could escape, but that doesn't stop my tears from flowing.

Stop it. it's fine. He didn't mean it. He didn't know. He didn't know! Why does my heart ache so bad. I can't stop thinking about it. It hurts so bad. Why did he have to remind me?

Despite my mouth being cover, my body chooses to shakily take in a breat which results in a sob. and now I can't stop. I try to cover my mouth but the cries just keep coming. it hurts so bad. I want it to stop.

Why?.. Why? Why?! WHY? WHY?! Make it stop. it burns. it feels like my lungs aren't letting me take air in anymore. am I dying? I can only hear my sobs now. I feel so weak. Why do I have to be in so much pain?.. it's not fair. it's not.

Even though I couldn't stop crying before, the second I hear quick footsteps, dread runs across my entire body and I stop. My eyes run dry. I don't feel.. Anything anymore except for the pain in my throat from heaving every cry.

The steps run into the bathroom. Two, No. Three people. It's Three people coming into the bathroom. "Iida?" someone says. I recognize that voice. It's Todoroki. he sounds worried. I don't answer. If I do It'll make everything more suspicious.

"Iida. are you in here?" I hear another voice say. it's Tokoyami. Still, I say nothing.

"Class president!~ please come out if you're in here, we are worried~" I can tell that accent from a mile away, it's Aoyama. I still do not want to talk. They can't know. They can't. I was lucky enough that no one was in the bathroom when I started my little 'tantrum' how embarrassing. I feel the urge to cry rise up again. I don't know why, but it hurts again.

Please leave. Please leave. Please leave. Please leave. Please leave. Please leave. Please leave. Please leave. Please leave. Please leave. Please leave. Please. Just. Leave.

I hear the footsteps walking away. I let out a shaky sigh, not realizing the fact that it was only two people walking out of the bathroom. I hear the bathroom door close and a knock on my stall door.

"I know you're in there Iida." Todoroki said. "please.. come out.." He said softly.

I don't dare to respond. I can't. I refuse to. I hear Todoroki sigh, he almost sounded sad. in one final attempt he leaned his back against the stall door. "Please. I want to know that you're okay.. Please Iida.. I'm worried.." He said in a shaky voice. I can practically hear my heart break. I made them all worry. I wipe my tears and try my best get rid of the redness in my eyes before slowly stepping out. I see Todoroki step away from the stall door and look at me, moving closer at me, as if he was examining me.

"Yes Todoroki?" I ask nervously. Todoroki grabbed my hands with his. I blink, confused. Todoroki glances at my arms before looking at my eyes. I look away a bit. "Please. Be honest. What's wrong?.." I smile sadly "It's.. nothing I promise." I say, my voice betraying me by shaking. Todoroki frowned, just a bit.