Fighting Feelings

Chapter 60

Charlottes POV

I'm at my locker, trying to find the pack of gum I know I have in here. I've been looking for five fucking minutes at this point. I have no clue where it's after hiding.

"Bro she's the best" I hear the guy beside me say. He was talking to his friend about something, I'm not really listening.

"I love her," He says, and I can't help but smile. That's so sweet.

"And fuck, she's so good in bed," He says. Oh... I begin to look quicker, feeling rather uncomfortable since I don't want to be hearing this conversation.

"Lucky. It's been two months and we still haven't fucked. Like, I love her, and I don't want to be a dick but at the end of the day, I have a dick" The guy beside him groans, while the other guy laughs.

"Id hate to be you" The guy laughs. Deciding I don't need gum anymore, I close my locker and quickly walk off.

Me and Cameron have been together for two months. Is that how he feels?

I don't want him to feel that way...

Walking into my first class of the day, I take my seat. I glance at Cameron who's on his phone while we all wait for Ms Parker to show up.

Sensing my stares, he turns his head, shooting me a smile when he sees me. I smile back, before looking down at my desk.

I don't want him to break up with me. I like him too much for him to leave me. He's one of my best friends and he's going to leave me, isn't he?

*****

I pick at the mac and cheese on my tray. I haven't been able to stop thinking about those two guys' conversation.

Is he going to leave me because he's bored of me?

I jump when a tray is put down on the table quite harshly, creating a rather loud bang.

Looking up, I see Cameron who's scowling, and Noah who's walking over laughing. 

Noah places his tray down gently, sitting down beside Cameron with a grin on his face.

"What did you do?" I ask Noah. "I called him Blaze" He laughs, and I snort while Cameron's scowl deepens. 

"Shut the fuck up Jacward" Cameron mutters, and Noah immediately stops laughing. "What the fuck is a 'Jacward' " I chuckle.

Noah glares at him. "Don't you fucking dare" He mutters, and Cameron smiles. "While I was going through my emo phase, he went through his twilight phase. He wanted everyone to call him Jacward, which was a mix of Jacob and Edward, since he did a Buzzfeed test and it said he was fifty percent wolf and fifty percent vampire" Cameron tells me, and I cover my mouth as I break out in hysterical laughter, while Noah glares at him.

"It's not fun, is it?" Cameron asks, and Noah rolls his eyes.

"Truce?" Noah says, and Cameron nods.

"Deal".

*****

"I don't get math at all" Cameron groans, causing me to smile a bit. He's sitting at my desk doing some studying, while I'm lying on my bed.

I invited Noah over as well, but he couldn't come. Cameron told me he's scared he'll break something. Sounds exactly like something Noah would think.

I've been thinking about what those guys said all day. I know it's stupid, but I physically can't help it.

I don't want him to get bored in our relationship. Or worse, I don't want him to leave me.

It's not that I'm not ready to..you know, It's just I thought it was too early. And I don't understand what's the rush.

But if Cameron wants to then I guess I'd be okay. If it meant he'd stay with me then I'll do it.

"Are you upset we haven't had sex yet?" I mumble, needing to know. Cameron chokes on his own spit and begins coughing a bit, causing me to smile.

"You can't say that stuff randomly Charlotte. Give me a warning please" He says before taking a sip of his bottle of water. He then spins around in the chair to face me.

"Why would I be upset?" Cameron asks me, and I shrug, feeling too embarrassed to say the real reason.

"The truth," Cameron tells me, and I sigh. "I overheard some guys talking when I was at my locker this morning" I mumble, looking down at my lap while I fidget with my hands.

"One of them said he was sad because he's been dating someone for two months and they haven't had sex yet," I tell him. I should have kept it to myself. This is so embarrassing.

"And we've been together for two months and I was worried it bothered you" I mumble.

"No Charlotte. It doesn't bother me at all" Cameron tells me. "I don't need sex to keep me happy. I just need you" He says, and my heart skips a beat at his confession, while my face is probably as red as ever.

"Won't you get bored?" I mumble. "Bored?" Cameron repeats before silence fills the air.

I want to look up and see his reaction, but I keep my eyes fixated on my lap, too embarrassed to look him in the eye.

"Charlotte look at me," Cameron tells me, but I don't.

I hear his footsteps as he walks over to me before the bed dips beside me.

A warm hand gently grips my chin, tilting my head up until I'm forced to look him in the eye.

"I will never get bored, okay? Ignore what others are doing. If you want to, then that's fine, but if you don't then don't push yourself to do something you think I want. I don't want you to feel pressured by me" Cameron tells me softly, and I nod. I really needed to hear those words.

Cameron leans over, placing a kiss on my forehead before pulling me into a hug. I relax immediately, leaning my head on his shoulder while his arms wrap around me tight.

"It is kinda hot how you're thinking about us having sex though" Cameron suddenly whispers in my ear, and my face goes red.

I pull away, turning so my back is facing him and I use my two hands to cover my face.

He laughs at my reaction, before throwing his arms around my neck and pulling me back down towards him.

I'm now lying on his lap, and he combs his hand through my hair, no doubt smiling like an idiot, while I keep my face hidden in my hands.

"You're too cute" Cameron chuckles, and I roll my eyes even though he cants see.

We sit there in silence for a few minutes him playing with my hair while I slowly build up the courage to remove my hands.

When I do, I'm met with Cameron's smile as he stares down at me. Blushing again, he laughs and I can't help but smile as I watch him.