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soft spot

Tw ! Self harm mentions of abuse please skip the last half if you are uncomfortable

Vances pov

I wake up with my face buried In y/ns chest and her hands wrapped around my neck and her legs wrapped around me "good morning beautiful, how did you sleep?" She smiles "I slept good" I smile back at her she's so gorgeous I think I might ask her to be mine soon , I would now but it's to soon right ? I mean I'm still so new to this "love" thing I don't wanna scare her away I rlly like her , "vance helllooo" y/n says waving her hand in my face "oh sorry" , "what's on your mind?" , "oh nothing just thinking " she gives me a "ik that's not it" look and smiles "alright whatever you say" she goes to get up "noooo five more minutes please we don't even have to go anywhereeee" , "ugh your so winey but fine " she says smile back at me she lays back down we both fall asleep

(Time skip)

Y/n pov

I wake up and look at the clock "holy shit" , i start shaking vance awake "vance vance VANCE!" , he opens his eyes and wines "whattttt" , "it's 4:30, we slept all day !" I say sounding upset I hate missing days of life it bums me out , vance replies to me "okay ? So we just slept in it's whatever ." I was upset so I walked out of the room into the kitchen sat down and freaking cried I have no idea why I was crying I was just in a mood and I was thinking about vance yelling at me yesterday ik alot happend since then and I told him it was fine but , I just thought how it brought me back it brought me back into my childhood home my dad drunk yelling at me

*Flash back *

"Your just a pathetic little pussy just like your mother !" He took a beer bottle and smashed it on my head I was crying begging for him to stop finally my mom came home "get away from my daughter!" He punched her.

*back to present time*

I was still sitting on the table crying having really bad ptsd from my dad just thinking about all the words he said finally I snap out of it at the sounds of footsteps o quickly wipe my tears it's stupid I'm stupid crying over nothing , vance sits down at the kitchen table next to me he was just staring at me untill he realized I had just been crying a second before "what's wrong y/n?" , I just force a smile "nothing I'm fine " he looks at me funny "ik your not fine you was crying tell me what's wrong"  , "it's stupid like really fucking stupid" I say back "idc y/n some times you just need to let it out cmon " , I sigh "fine , I just can't stop thinking about my dad it's like some one says the littlest tiny bit of mean thing to me and I'm back in my childhood home he's screaming at me and hitting me in the head with his beer  bottle ", I start crying I can't help it , vance starts walking towards me he picks me up with such ease and throws me over his shoulder, tears still running from my face he puts me down on the bed and starts hugging me "y/n , I love you sm and it's gonna b fine I'm here I promise ", I nod and speak up "I need to go to my house am I staying the night again here ?" , he sighs "my parents are gonna be home , can we stay I yours ?" I nod he gets his clothes and we head back to my house we get to the door and I was prepping myself for vance to meet my mom I love her but she's kinda a mess , we walk in and I see no one's there "mom ! " I scream no amwser. I look in the kitchen on the fridge and I see a note

Dear y/n , I love you but I have decided to take a break off work and go up to Chicago with your aunt and stay up here for a bit I don't know when I'll be back but it might be 1 month I love you and I left some money for you

                                             - love mom.

I read that and was on the break of tears this is the second time this month really ? Leaving on no notice when I need her the most vance asked me wsp and I told him he could tell I was sad , "imma go to the bathroom my room is the second door on the left in the hall just set your clothes where ever get comfy " he nods and smiles i rush to the bathroom sit on the floor and cry I know vance said I need to talk to him abt these things I just can't help but feel bad , I look for it  I found my broken razor with the blade and I think "a month ? I can't " I do anyways I cry as I take the blade making swift and clean lines along my arms while crying it was all to much , when I was done I tried to clean my self up and I went back to the room once I get to my room vance was smiling at me I smiled back I bend over picking up my clothes when all of a sudden vance speaks up " wait y/n stay like that " I stay put he studies me "what  is that " he comes close I quickly realized what he was talking about I forgot I was wearing shorts and I forgot to roll my sleeve down all the way I get up quick and back away "y/n stop !" He yells he grabs a hold of my wrists and rolls my sleeves up he sees all the marks my scars he sighs grabs me and drags me down the hall he takes me to the bathroom and he sits me on the counter he looks around finds the razor and throws it away,  he opens the drawer in the bathroom and pulls out a first aid kit he starts cleaning my cuts and all I can do is cry I didn't want him to see this it makes me look weak , when he's finally done cleaning my thighs and wrists he starts kissing my scars and saying sweet things to me "my gorgeous girl" , "pretty girl", "your so so so pretty "  , "I'm so lucky" I was just in awe he gets up and kisses my lips "y/n ?" , "yes vance ?", " please don't do this again if you feel like it please come to me I can help I promise " he says "okay" .

Thank you all for reading ! Sorry i have not been active I have been busy with school and every thing