Let It Be

Chapter 16

As Jazz drove me back to my car, we sat in silence as the music played in the background.

"You okay?" She asked genuinely.

"Yea I'm good." I said, forcing a smile. I exhaled hard through my nose, amused, and turned to look out of my window.

"I don't know, you just seem... different." Jazz told me.

I chuckled a fake laugh and replied, "Naah bruh, I'm good."

I could feel Jazz's eyes burning into the back of my head as I looked out the window avoiding complete eye contact.

When we finally pulled up to where I was parked, I hopped out the car. Jazz opened her door to get out and give me a hug. I sighed. I didn't even want to hug her right now. I decided to put a little salt in the wound and went over to her and dapped her up like I would dap up one of my male friends.

Jazz looked completely dumbfounded as she simply said, "Oh, okay then.. see ya." and simply walked away.

I hopped in my car, turned up the music and drove off; my thoughts all over the place. I knew I liked this girl. It was apparent. Especially with all the time we had spent together.. and the sex... my GAWD the sex was everything, but I wasn't going to get involved with her. We just had a threesome, or whatever that was, last night. She clearly just wanted a fuck buddy. I've had fuck buddies before, but this.. this was so much more than that. The way she held me, the way she spoke, the way she paid attention to me, the way she admired my body more than any fem I had ever come across. All of that was supposed to lead to something good. I didn't give a fuck who judged us. I just wanted her. And now I didn't even want to look at her.

It hurt.. but I knew I'd get over it. I always did... eventually.

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A few weeks flew by and I hadn't talked to Jazz. I spent most of my time working, picking up extra shifts, going out clubbing, and meeting random women on Fish In The Sea. It was empty and just passed the time so I wouldn't have to focus on my hurt feelings. I mean, I'm an Aquarius, that's what we do.

One random evening while shutting everything down and closing up the kiosk at work, I felt a set of eyes staring at me. I looked up just in time to see Jazz, working her way toward me. Since the whole "threesome" ordeal, I had kept the conversation strictly at "Hi" and "Bye". I kind of liked it that way. That way I wouldn't have to address the fact that I was hurt and upset at something that I suggested. I mean, it was my fault. I brought her to Darla's house, I let the whole thing happen. It was partly my fault everything happened the way it did because I was the jealous one to begin with. I was being petty.......

But I wasn't gonna admit that to Jazz.

This time, though, Jazz headed straight to my kiosk. "Wussap with you?" she asked smoothly. I couldn't believe it. As salty as I was, I still melted like butter when she spoke.

"Aint shit." I simply replied without looking up from what I was doing.

"How come you keep disappearing on me woman?" Jazz asked jokingly.

"I haven't been ... I been in the same place as always. Not my fault you be gone nshit." I retorted.

"Yea okay. Well anyway, I'm getting off in 10 minutes..... Wanna go to our spot?" Jazz asked, raising her eyebrows suggestively.

My heart jumped. I hadn't been to that little airplane spot since she last brought me. I almost forgot about it. I definitely didn't want to pass that up no matter how mad I was at her.

"Shit, why not?" I replied as nonchalantly as possible, knowing damn well I was excited as hell on the inside.

"Okay cool!" Jazz replied with the hugest kool-aid grin you could ever imagine. "So you want to meet me there or ride together?"