Loneliness... It is a fear of mine. Everyone knows me as this kind person, who will freely welcome you. And of course, I will let you in. We would spend time together, and grow closer, but when will it last?
Someday they are just going to leave you or they are going to lose interest in you. And that would make you think,
"Am I not good enough to make someone stay?".
This fear will make you greedy. You will try to collect some friends. You will try to fit in... So one day, when they do eventually leave it wouldn't hurt as much.
Life is indeed unfair. If you are just gonna suffer, why does the world even exist? They say work hard for it, 'someday your hard work is gonna pay off ' but what if it doesn't? Even though, no matter how hard you work for it, it could just go in vain.
I wish I could see the future. So that way, I don't have to worry about a thing. At least, I will be aware and prepare for the worst. But of course, that kind of wish is impossible.
Huh? Who am I even kidding? Wishes? Shooting stars? Genies? Maybe a fairy godmother? BS! Such things would never exist. Do they say that they make wishes come true? Well, Wake up! What's the point of wishing when there is no one to fulfill it? You're just getting your hopes up. That is the reality!
Freaking realities! What's the point of dreaming? When reality is just gonna crush all of it anyway. What a joke!
"THIS HAS TO BE A JOKE!? ARE YOU KIDDING ME!"
I hate everything that this world has to offer! Ughh.
Yesterday, I went to the dentist to get my braces adjusted, and it hurts like mother freaking hell! And the wires are poking me! And now I am in my bathroom sitting on the toilet, just to see, it is the time of the freaking month! JUST GREAT. Really! Thank you!
At ngayon bad mood na ko, in pain, at may exam ako ngayon. Haha, I'm going insane.
Narinig ko bigla si mama tinawag ako para bumababa at kumain. Nasa Pilipinas siya ngayon dahil bakasyon niya ngayon. May kasama na ko ulit sa condo ko.
Medyo malaki naman ang condo ko. Dalawang kwarto at banyo, may kitchen, at may counter at stools at isang living room. Since ako lang din naman mag isa binenta na ni mama yung bahay namin para maka bili ng condo malapit sa school ko.
She just came back from Spain for her to work there as a doctor and to pay for my med school. I have everything I need. A good house, gadgets, food, things I need for school. I truly owe everything to her. Not every hero needs to wear a cape. When I become successful, I will spoil her and buy her everything she wants.
"Briella!!!"
"Ma! Few more minutes"
" Delancie Briella Santiago!! Halika ka na bumaba ka na dito at kumain na!"
Oh no, Galit na nga siya. I look at myself one more time and fix my dark brown with highlights of light brown hair and my light makeup in the mirror. I know universities especially if you are in a medical course are not allowed dyed hair but it is really my natural hair color! Si mama ay filipino at ang papa ko ay spanish. Kaso, Ever since nung bata ako iniwan na ako ni papa at may sarili na ibang pamilya sa US. Pero ok lang! Who says I need him anyway?
When everything is set I grab my things and quickly go downstairs
"Dios mío! Ang tagal, inabot ka na ng pasko"
" Hay nako Ma! OA talaga"
" Bilisan mo na diyan malalate ka, exam mo diba ngayon? Nag aral ka ba? Parang hinde ka naman nag aral eh"
" Luh ma! You don't have faith in me?! Ouch! Nag aral po ako kaya don't worry"
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"Ma, mag worry ka na" sabi ko pabulong habang naka hawak sa aking ulo
Kakatapos ko lang ng exam at potrages ang hirap! Jusko naman! Bat' ko nga ba pinili itong course. Maybe ang stupid ko noon kaya ginawa ko yun. Ang confident ko pa noon ha. Hay nako sana nakikita ako ng past self ko kung ano nararanasan ko ngayon dahil sa stupidity niya.
"PST! Del!"
May narinig ako may tumawag sakin habang inaayos ko gamit ko, nung tumigin ako sa may pintuan nakita ko si Col, isa sa mga bestfriend. Law naman ang course niya. After i fixed my things, pumunta na ako sa kaniya.
"Ang hirap ng exam! Sabog na utak ko eh" reklamo niya habang nag lalakad kami palabas ng UST para kumain. Tapos na din kasi ang araw kasi nga exam
"Hinde ba matagal na sabog utak mo?" pang asar ko sa kaniya habang nakatayo kami sa labas ng UST inaantay yung isa
"Ay wow! Edi ikaw na matalino" pabiro sabi niya. Tas may biglaang tumalon at yumakap sa aming likod at nilagay niya ang kaniyang kamay sa aming balikat
"Ayaw ko na makakita ng mga numbers unless pera yan at ang mga x at y! AYAW KO NA! I! QUIT!"
"Yeah right! Kung ayaw mo sa math nag engineering ka pa" sabi ko habang iniikot ko ang aking mata
"SUS! Leya. Sino kinokombinse mo? Multo? Pakilala mo naman ako"
"Baliw! Uy wag ka ganyan. Halatang halata ka wala kang love life!"
"Pft!" Napatawa ako sa sinabi ni Leya
"Ay wow Del! Parang ikaw meron"
"At least, i know na wala talaga. Siya ka hinde naman ako naghahanap"
"NYE NYE NYE" sabi niya habang gumagawa siya ng child like faces. Ang childish
"Hays ok lang yan guys! Buti ako meron"
"EDI WOW! Halika na kumain na nga tayo nagugutom na ko. Baka nag-iintay na sa si El" At lumakad na nga kami tatlo para maghanap kung saan pwede kumain
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Wishes Do Come True
RomanceA girl who has given up making wishes because they never come true. Especially when she was in pain and needed hope. But when she moved to her mother's country, the Philippines, everything changed. She gained new friends, which helped her forget why...
