When You Were Here

Missing Him

It has been forever since I have last seen Derek. Well its only really been two months but I miss him so much that time just slows by. I'm so worried for him anything could happen to him and I just don't know how much longer I can go without seeing him. We have written back and forth but it takes so long to receive his letters.

I get in my car and go to counseling, I got really depressed when he left so my mom has a friend who is a counselor and she made me start going. I actually enjoy talking to Beckie, she is very kind and understanding. For the first three visits I would sit in her office and cry, she would just talk to me and wait for me to stop crying. "Allison," Beckie calls. I pick up my purse and follow her. "So how are you today?" she asks. "I'm alright, I got a letter from him, he says he is okay," I say. "That is good, are you still talking with your friends?" she asks. "Yeah, I still hang out with them," I say.

I leave there and go to the restaurant where he proposed to me. I ask for the table that we sat at. I order a bowl of soup and a glass of soda. This guy walks up to me and starts flirting with me. I akwardly clear my throat and say, "Um, I'm engaged." He apologizes and walks away. I leave as soon as I pay and I drive home. My mom is home and she asks how counseling was. "It was alright, I went for a drive afterward," I say and start writing a letter to Derek in my room.

Dear Derek,

I count the days until I can see you again. I miss you so much that it hurts. You are so far away but when I read your letters I feel like you are right beside me. Today I had counseling, it was alright. Some days I feel as if I might not see you again.

I am glad that you are doing okay, it puts a smile on my face knowing that you are okay for now. Its not the same without you here, I can't stop thinking about the night you proposed to me, that was the absolute best night of my life so far.

My parents asked me to send their love, you are so important to all of us.
Be safe my love I will see you soon.
Love,
Alison.

I send the letter and go plan out dress shopping. Tracey meets me at the shop and we look for hours for the perfect one. We find it after a while.

Sorry I have been so busy lately. I have a lot of stuff happening. Next chapter I might post a picture of the dress. Happy reading.