Only you (MileApo)

Chapter 21 : Only you

Mile's POV

I wore my best clothes to see him. It was the same clothes that I wore the first time I met him. Yeah the time when I get shoot by that stupid Michael. He will definitely love it. I really want to see his shocked face.

"Yes, finally I'm gonna meet Apo!" I said excitedly.

"I will bring you to him but one condition. Close your eyes" She said and gave me a piece of fabric.

Uuuuu mysterious. I don't know why Apo thinks about such things. It's sexy.

Erika drove me somewhere. I'm so so excited.

We arrived. She led me by holding my hand . Today's weather is rainy but just drizzling. Cold wind is blowing on my face. It's quite cold.

She untied the fabric she gave to close my eyes.

I open my eyes

"Why did you bring me here?This is a prank right? It is not funny. Where Apo?! Erika!! Where is Apo!!! I'm serious right now where Apo? Why did you bring me here!!!"

I open my eyes and I see a grave. The gravestone writes 'Always in memory Nattawin' on it.

"Actually Mile. I really want to tell you but Apo doesn't want to do that. He doesn't want to be sad. So I keep the secret from you. But it really hurts when I see you still searching for him even though he died."

"Is he the one that donated the heart?"

"Yes Mile"

"No!! This is not true! No!" I ran away.

"Mile!! Don't go"

"Don't follow me!! Leave me alone!!"

I run but I don't know where to go. So I decided to go to my family's old house at Krabi. Luckily, I have my debit card.

I took a flight. I just want to rest. I don't want to believe what happened. I want to forget it. So I arrived at our old house.

This house has a lot of memories. I used to live here before my father became Mafia Boss. At that time he was very kind. But when he became Mafia Boss he abused me. I don't want to be like him. He doesn't want to be weak. So he hits me everytime I do something wrong. Our old car still can be used.

I just want to release my head. So I went to a club. There were so many people there. I drink vodka and whiskey. I see some cute girl. We drink and dance together. She tried to kiss but
I avoid it. We both touch each other's bodies.

I brought her to my place. Yeah I want to spice things up. We both kissed while going to the bedroom. It is so messy and ravenous. I push her on the bed. I kiss her from his leg up to his neck. I take out my condom. My heartbeat was pumping so fast.

Suddenly I think "Is this really what I want?"

"I can't do this" I said

"Hellooooo.So are you gonna fvck me or not? Hm you just wasting my time" She said and stormed out of the house.

3 weeks have passed. I don't go to the clubs anymore. I just brought alcohol to my house and drank it alone.

I drink vodka and whiskey alone. I feel so sad and lonely. I just cried on my own. I just keep thinking of Apo. His smile is always pictured in my head.

I never knew I could miss someone so deeply and strongly but here we are.

I hold my heart

"Why did you leave me? You said you want to be my wife. You said you love me. You liar!" I cried.

Suddenly someone knocked on my door. I opened it. It's Erika. I can see her tear fall down on her face.

"Go! What do you want?!"

"Mile, I just want to say sorry. I should not keep the secret from you. But it's Apo's last will."

"Okay. Whatever! Now please leave!"

"There is something I want to give you. It's from Apo"

I let her in. Actually I can't be mad at her. She is just like a mother to me.

"Here" She gave a letter. It written to Mile

"Hi Mile. If you read this, I'm already dead. But don't worry, my heart is still pumping. It's just to keep you alive. You know, you really make me worried. I come to visit you everyday. If I have time even though it's short I will visit you. It's because I want to be the first person you see when you open your eyes. But now I realise, I can't. When your heartbeat becomes weaker by days. I can't think of anything. I just want to save you. Erika told me that I shouldn't do that. She will find someone else. But I already made up my mind. I will donate my heart to you, my loved ones. It's quite late to say it. I love you Mile. You are always saving me from trouble. Thanks a lot. I know you will be sad but I just want you to know that your happiness is my happiness. If you are sad or lonely. Just remember I am always there for you. My heart is part of me and now it's also part of you. Please promise me Mile, please keep living. For me. Keep smiling. For me. I will wait for you. Goodbye"- Your lovely, Apo

I cried. Erika hugged me.

The only time a goodbye is painful is when you know you'll never say hello again.

" I promise. I will never love someone else. Only you, Apo"

The End