𝐅𝟒 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐃: 𝐁𝐨𝐲𝐬 𝐎𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐅𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐬 [𝐎𝐧𝐞 𝐒𝐡𝐨𝐭]

𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐈 𝐠𝐨, 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐮𝐬

Post episode 14 breakup; Gorya just can't move on from Thyme no matter how much she wants to, be it after 1 month, 3 months, 6 months, or a year.

Listening to "I miss you, I'm sorry" by Gracie Abrams as I write this, and I can't stop crying T^T

∘₊✧──────✧ ᴱᵛᵉʳʸʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᴵ ᵍᵒ, ᵇʳⁱⁿᵍˢ ᵐᵉ ᵇᵃᶜᵏ ᵗᵒ ᵘˢ ✧──✧₊∘

The first two months were no less than hell.

She arrived in the afternoon back to her family in Petchaburi with a forced smile and acted like she was okay, dodging the many questions that they had about her sudden return. She had to, she said, since she was the pillar of her family.

Work.

Eat.

Work some more.

Cook.

Eat .

Sleep.

That soon became her schedule for every passing day. The fresh smell of the earth, the vegetables, and fruits, the clear blue sky filled with white clouds, and the greenery all around her should have been enough to lift her's, or anyone else's spirits .

But it was hard to enjoy anything when there was a constant, intense, heart-wrenchingly painful ache that persisted in her ever since that dreadful night when she decided to break Thyme's heart, and therefore break a part of herself. Even thinking of his name had her close to tears. At night, sleep was hardly a choice as she was left all alone to herself and her thoughts. Locking herself in her room, Gorya cried and cried for hours in the foreign environment till the first rays of sunlight hit her back as she remained on the floor, her head resting on the bed in front of her. 

Repeat the cycle the next day.

And again the next day.

And again.

Her brother had caught on soon enough that everything was not alright and went to confront her.

Carefully sitting beside her on the bed, he asked, "Sis, are you feeling okay? You didn't tell us why you suddenly came after leaving school." He hesitated for a moment before saying, "What about P'Thyme?"

Gorya tried hard but couldn't control the tears, not able to give an answer to her dear brother. Getting a hint into what might have happened, all Glakhao could do was pull her into his embrace and comfort her while controlling his own tears. He didn't ask anything after that.

Her parents were too late to catch on since they were hardly home. They had to work all morning and afternoon at the farm and sell the produce in the evening. They were too tired to notice Gorya's painful expressions when they brought up talks about the F4 , Kaning, and Uncle Ga. 

One day she finally broke down in front of them when they asked her if Thyme had hot pot together with her after they had left to come here. They kept in mind not to bring it up ever again, no matter how curious or worried they were over what had taken place after their absence.

Days passed, weeks passed, then months passed, and Gorya found herself used to living with the pain in her chest. She busied herself with more and more work, whatever she could do or find. Nobody stopped her, but she knew they were all worried, and she knew that they knew she was just distracting herself.