The Diaries Of A Queer

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

We made our way through security at the entrance to the school and I surf the crowd for the tall mysterious guy who necklace I had, I gave one last once over and tucked it in my pants and continued walking to the Cafeteria. "Its barely been a week since school started again and already I want this year to end" Bianca said, "Until she smells the fresh scent of freshmen" one of the boys whispered while Maria and me just shake our heads at her. "This is our last year Bibi lets just enjoy and have fun, we are seniors now lets act like it" I responded making the boys stop their giggling as we entered the Cafeteria.

I'm already anxious to get this day started so I walk up to the stand and grab a carton of milk and say goodbye to the boys who I knew was gonna pig out on the pancakes, I swear I don't know where they put it well I know where Ariel puts his. Maria and me shared the same locker since we met freshman year but I was better at opening it and plus we had most of the same classes so I was always there to open it for her, "I don't need anything right now so Ill see you second period in English" she said. I just nodded my head and opened my locker, grabbed what I needed and closed it making my way to class before I was late since my locker was on the other side of where I was suppose to be, I walked in class right on time and sat in my regular seat and looked out the window.

I made it to my senior year with grades that were not too shameful and I was planning to go to college one of the few actually from my family, most of my family barely made it passed High School. I was the vice president of the senior class and I got all a couple of true friends who always been there for me but despite all that, why do I feel like this? Why can't I enjoy life like everyone else? Most people would be happy because they're graduating but me, I feel numb and sad. My therapist calls it Bipolar Depression which basically means I get depressed very easily and it takes me longer to get out of it, I hate taking medication because they fog my thoughts and make me feel drowsy. Right now all I want is to feel just a sliver of normalcy or even happiness.

I was pulled out of my thoughts with the sound of the bell, I got out of my seat and rushed out of the classroom to meet up with Maria for our next class together like always. I was about to go up the stairs when I saw the mysterious guy from this morning walking out of the principles office "Hey!" I shouted but he kept walking, didn't he hear me? I tried again "Hey I have something of yours!" and again he kept walking, this guy clearly has a hearing problem and with that thought I shook my head and continued walking to my next class.

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Finally Friday was here and I'm already half way through my classes, we was in the cafeteria and the boys was making faces at Bianca who was at the next table sulking because of 'personal problems' which we never pressed on unless she wanted to talk. "So did you hear anything new through The Great Vine?" Maria asked while picking at her salad she knew that I always knew anything and everything that happen here, "Not really but I have a meeting later with the rest of the student government so if there is anything you want me to discuss with them let me know now so I can bring it up later" I said as I checked my sugar before eating, "91 that's good no need to worry" Maria said as she read the glucose machine smiling at me. She was like my little sister and she always looked out for me.

We kept chatting some more until I saw the guy I bumped into earlier this week walking to the exit door of the cafeteria, he must of felt my gaze because he stop and turn around looking around the Cafe until his eyes landed on me making me try to look away but it was too late. I got lost in his eyes once again, he had to be at least 6'2 with long raven black hair that was style like a punk rocker, he had a lean bod but you could still see his muscles under his Florence And The Machine shirt he had on to top it off with a black leather jacket and jeans. I looked back up to his face to see him still looking at me but with his eyebrow raised as a questioningly look but quickly turn into a warm smile which only took my breathe away, I smiled back and with that he walked out the door.

"What are you looking at Bastian?" Maria asked as she was grabbed her things for class, "The boy that bumped into us this week" I responding making everybody look toward the direction I was still looking at only he wasn't there no more. They look back at me then back the spot then the boys shook their shoulders and picked up Bianca's books forcing her to get up grumbling walking after them, I picked up my notes and also walked after them since we all had the same class next. We enter the torture room or what other people call the gymnasium and rush to the lockers to change into our gym clothes, this was the worst part having to change in front of other people so I quickly change to my black tee with the schools logo on it and grey sweats and rush back out. Me and the girls teamed up to play volleyball against the boys, they always got cocky then will get mad because we always beat them and before we knew it school was over we had played straight through our afternoon free periods.

I rushed to change so I could make it to my meeting but when I made it to the door I saw Shanita waving me over, "Hey Sebastian I'm glad I caught you the meeting is canceled due to the fact that Ms. Torres is sick" she said with and irritated face "Oh well let everyone know we are meeting after school on Wednesday" She smiled and hugged me " have a good weekend text me if anything".

'So much for a meeting' I thought as I walked toward the exit when I saw the guy once again, I called out to him but he kept walking so I rush over and tapped his shoulder and he turned around confused until he saw me and smiled " I'm sorry I didn't mean to startle you but I've been trying to catch your attention for a while now" I said breathlessly still stun by his beauty but he kept on smiling "So as I was saying when you bumped into me-" I was cut off as he held up his hand he reach into his pocket and pull out his cellphone and started typing, I toke this chance to actually get a closer look at him and that's when I noticed it, you wouldn't be able to see it at first glance but now looking I saw it ... hearing aids. He put the screen of his phone to my face but I already could assume what it said 'Sorry dude, I'm deaf so I cant keep up it what your telling me' I couldn't believe it ... he's deaf.