My Rogue Alpha

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Harry pov

"So, I guess what happened a few years ago is holding you back on the whole mating thing?" Harley asked.

I bit my lip in shame and nod, "I've tried to let it go but it just keeps popping up again."

Harley sighed, "Oh babe, zayn isn't like that. He won't force you into anything."

'It's been seven fucking months and you still don't want to have sex? What the hell haz!'

I shuddered at the memory and harley immediately had me engulfed in a hug. "I know zayn won't hurt me. But it's just scary. He's constantly holding back. What if he loses
control?"

Harley rubbed my back, "zayn is a very strong Alpha. From what I've heard, being rogue for more than one year is almost impossible. If he managed to keep control during
all that I'm sure he'll be fine with your boundaries."

"It just scares me at times. I'm so attracted to him that I forget that at any moment it could snap and change." I told her.

"Have you talked to him about all this?" Harley asked me.

I shook my head, "I don't want to worry him. He already acts like a cave man sometimes."

Harley rolled her eyes, "That's just an Alpha for you. Will does the same thing at times and he's the Beta. He'll
stick to me like glue and act super overprotective when I break a nail."

I bit back a smile and harley continued, "The problem is, Zayn won't know it's bothering you until you tell him. I bet that when you tell him about it all he'll reassure you
and watch himself more."

I looked up at her, "You don't think he'll freak out? He blew up on a guy because he grabbed my arm without my permission."

"He'll probably be angry because of what happened. He'll probably want to beat the shit out of your ex, but he won't leave you or anything." Harley reassured me, "Did he blow up
because the guy touched your arm or because you reacted badly to the touch?"

I thought about it, I guess I did panic as soon as he grabbed me. Could zayn have seen that? "I don't know... He only told me he was angry at the guy for grabbing me."

Harley nodded thoughtfully, "Maybe ask him about it. I know that it will probably upset him but I swear communication matters in.  relationships. I'm willing to bet money that you two will both feel better after discussing all this."

"Maybe I'll try." I mumbled, trying to give harley some satisfaction. She wasn't wrong though. Communication
could fix a lot of issues, maybe I should really try talking to him.

"Really you just need to trust him. I know he'll do anything to keep you safe." Harley told me. She then smiled and squeezed my hand, "haz, do you have feelings for him?"

"Of course I do! I really like his company and stuff."

Harley gave me a look, "Uh... 'you really like his company and stuff'? I'm talking about the romance! Do you want to be close to him? Do you want to learn every single detail about him? Do you want to kiss him and maybe even more?" She wiggled her eyes on that last one. "In summary: do you love him or are you at least falling in love with him?"

I felt my cheeks heat up once again. I do want all of those things. I care about zayn more than I'd like to admit. In such a short time, he has become my world. I'm already afraid that I wouldn't be able to live without him. Is that love?

"I think I'm at least falling in love."

"Then talk to him sweetheart. I know he'll do anything to make you more comfortable. You'll feel much better and you'll be able to fall deeper in love with him." Harley told me.