A sorrowful turn of events

a sorrowful Discovery

I woke up in cold sweat as i slightly stood up

i groan in pain as i feel daggers peircing around my limbs and joints, as i attempt to at least sit up, which i ended up doing

then flashbacks of last nights evend hit me like a hammer

i remember what happened with error, what he told me, what he did...

i try and keep positive since itd be a burden feeling weakened by negative emotions

i shook my head, trying to focus on something else, i had recharged a little more magic, exactly what i needed, i could go to heaventale and get some positive emotions, then my magic will be at its max, and finally, i can use healing magic!

that sounds like a good plan. Hehe, My intellect is so outstandingly Advanced! 

i felt my spirits rising in the slightest spam of seconds, then teleported to heaventale

-time skip-

i had been back at the star sanses base after an infatigable day of hard working, clearly feeling pride in my sedulous behaviour

i felt myself unconsiciously sigh 

but not one of those that come from exaustion but more of relaxation

i decided that maybe since  had unlocked some more free time, i should try and fix my vocabulairy a bit, since my speech is a bit ...medieval if i had to describe it

i have still gotten better at formulating understanable speeches, at least better than when i had just gotten out of stone

without further ado,, i should start

i looked around the library and grabbed the book i was looking for

'bingo!' I thought as i slowly opened it, inside were a bundle of words i knew, with their more modern replacements, i looked through it to find the page that i was looking for

"lets see, i beg to differ--"

i started

"i d-disagree?"

"waAa this is so difficult!! i disagree? Really?  Thats all the new generation could think of?"

i kept whining until i decided i should go somewhere else instead, to clear my mind of things, especially since i have to plan ways to get my brother to forgive me, and maybe error as well...

the thought of error slightly made my SOUL feel guilt

it was my fault anyways, if i had just acted more lovingly and considered night more, maybe he wouldnt have hated me so much, maybe i wouldnt have lost error

heh, im so pathetic that i couldnt even save him from the bullies

i couldnt even save myself from Th4T v1ll4g3r....

i shiver at the thought of what happened, as if i were reviving that exact moment, the pain, the tears, the hurtfull words

made me feel so utterly disgusting......

made me feel.. sick

made me feel utterly gross

made me feel like an absolute sinner

made me feel like i was the most filthy skeleton in the whole multiverse

made me feel sick about myself

made me feel like a play thing, and that thats the only thing im useful for

made me feel.. used

just how he had stated