Two Guys, A Girl, and A Baby

I Stay Back Again..

Sam prepares to go with Cass this time to moderate with the werewolves and shapeshifters. Dean prepares the other hunters with the fight they could be facing.  The werewolves would be day one and if they all survive the shapeshifters the next day.  I recommend that they dip their clothes in Silver iodide to help stave off the werewolves.  Dean thinks me a genius.  He never thought to do that before.  I thought about with the shapeshifters that everyone write numbers on each others backs and not tell the person the number.  I told Dean it probably sounded silly my idea but, it would allow you to tell the difference between the shapeshifter and the true hunter.  Dean laughed and thought they may just work. 

"Dean I want to go this time to fight. I feel useless not helping at all." I say.  Dean looks stern at me and shakes his head no.  "Dean I have to help I don't want you to get hurt either." I say back.  "Y/N, Your NOT.. NOT going with us on this hunt." Dean shouts at me.  "Dean I need to go."  I say again.  "Y/N, I don't want you to go you got hurt the first time.  I'm not risking your life for anything." Dean tells me.  "I don't want you to get hurt or risk your life, but you always do that without how I feel all the time." I whisper yell back.  "My decision is final Y/N that's the end of the conversation." Dean whisper yells back.  I walk away from Dean in a huff. 

I can't believe him what am I, his kid?  I say this out loud to myself.  I go lie down on Sam's bed and read one of the books that Sam had on his night table.  Dean walks into the room and sits on the bed and lies next me.  "I'm taking a nap before we all go out if that's okay?" Dean says.  I nod at him regardless how mad at him I am.  I slowly fall asleep myself and wake up to an empty bed.  I start to hyperventilate a little.  I know its no good because he's gone to fight the werewolves.  I get to the bathroom and take a shower.  The water feels nice as I cry softly to myself.  I get out and get dressed. I head over to dining room table with Charlie at a computer.

"Are you alright? Your eyes look puffy?" Charlie questions me.  ""Yea, I'm okay.  I was crying a little in the shower.  Because I'm worried about Dean and everyone.  Plus we had a fight before he left tonight."  I say back.  "What was the fight about Y/N?" Charlie asks.  "I wanted to join on the fights to help him and watch his back.  He told me no because I got hurt last time.  I'm perfectly fine now.  I just don't get how he can sacrifice himself.  While I can't do the  same for him." I tell her.  "Perhaps, his sense of life for himself is low.  Also he loves you so much he can't stand to lose you ever.  The threat of that or it happening could destroy your husband." Charlie explains to me. 

I guess, I understand he doesn't want to lose me, but I don't want to lose him either.  I wish he understood I would die for him too.  I go to the living room and sit at the overstuffed couch.  I watch some Netflix movie to try to get my mind off of my family risking their lives.  I feel worthless because what if I lose my whole family tonight.  I get up after the movie and decide to go on a walk alone.  Charlie offers to go, but I tell her I'd rather go alone.  So I leave Sam's house and head down the dimly lit sidewalk.  I walk and look at the different shops and restaurants.  I think that there definitely was a lot more to offer here.  But I don't think I'm a city gal.  I like smaller towns and the quietness a surrounding it's somehow reassuring.  

I go in a diner that's not to far away and sit and order food to go.  I order everyone their favorites.  I sit their in the loud diner trying to zone out and hope that this was for nought.  I gather the food bags and head back the couple blocks back to Sam's.  I call up to the apartment and Charlie comes down and helps me with the bags.  She told me she got a call from Sam and they should be back any minute.  "Oh, Thank GOD!!" I scream.  I felt like a damn dog at the door waiting for her master.  Someone unlocks the door and I grab the doorknob in desperation.  Sam looks at me surprised and exclaimed," Y/N, something wrong?"  I just shake my head and hug him and hug everyone as they come in the home.  Then I see Dean a little worse for wear and I throw myself onto him.