Fuck you for ruining NYC for me (G×G)

The kiss

Hi all,

First of all, we are all super excited for the debut album, right?!
I wanted to publish this chapter today as a celebration for the launch. I hope you will like it. Things will move faster from now on, promise. ;) 

I would love to read about your top 3 songs in the comment section. 
Have fun reading this chapter while streaming Girl Of My Dreams.  
xx, R.

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Cari played "All love" next.

"The song "All Love" was then released. When the notification came through, Kristen and I were on a business trip, and we had just finished dinner and were heading back to the hotel. As soon as it happened, my face became completely white, and Kristen had to force the truth out of me. She stayed with me and we listened to the song together. It had probably been less than half a year since we had last seen each other in New York, so I had a good idea that the song was quite new. I was able to handle it a little bit better, maybe because of Kristen." I concluded and looked at Cari once again.

"I wrote 'All Love' in one hour two days after we met in the bar. I was angry and disappointed, that's how it came out." She shrugged her shoulder. "Can we talk about the album release? I guess you listened to all the songs together then. I am not sure I can sing a lot more right now..."

"Of course, if that's what you want." I agreed and took a big breath. "In anticipation of the EP's release, I've chosen to take a sick day. Up until that point, I hardly took any days off, but I decided that I need at least a day to fall apart. " I pulled my knees to my chest and wrapped my arms about them. "When I found out that the title of the EP is going to be "you ruined new york city for me," I immediately realized that the rest of the songs would also be about me, about us." I nodded my head as I recalled the memories I tried to bury for so long. "I was moved emotionally by both songs, but "Stranger" in particular had me listening to it for hours. I tried to hold on to it, that maybe your opinion of us has changed a little, maybe you see our past more from my perspective, but then... then I went down the rabbit hole with your interviews... " I needed to feel safe so I buried my head between my knees. "A rather dark and tough period followed. I desparately tried to recall our past, the specifics, and tried to determine whether our relationship had been as toxic as you had claimed. It brought me to tears to realize that my experience was so different from yours. I always thought that those years were fantastic, but maybe the timing wasn't perfect. Knowing that it hit you so hard, that you had to find an escape from me... I kept listening to your voicemail on top of that. I went out drinking, smoking and partying every single night..." I was still talking with my head between my knees, but I felt that she moved closer to me on the couch, and then I felt her gently stroking my back. "After roughly two months of this, Kristen reached a breaking point and gave me an ultimatum. Either I'll get my act together or the company will have no choice but to fire me as CEO. I knew she was serious, so I sought out a therapist, got rid of all the booze and drugs in the house, and became serious about my workout routine. I turned my life around and, rather than hiding in shame after the EP, I made the decision to work hard each and every day to become a better person." When I finally glanced up at Fletcher, I saw that she was crying as well. "I was hoping that one day I would be able to prove this to you as well, but to be honest, I didn't expect it to happen."

"I'm sorry, Avery," Cari said as she gently caressed my cheek with her palm and attempted to dry my tears, but they were quickly replaced by new ones. "That was not my intention at all. I was under the assumption that you were unconcerned about what transpired between us after you rushed away and didn't respond to anything; so, I believed that our relationship wasn't as important to you as it was to me. I felt betrayed, and I felt as if you had been cheating on me the whole time, and that you didn't love me as much as I loved you." She brushed her hand through her hair and leaned forward, sobbing, "I understand now that I couldn't have been farther from the truth."