Bloodshed

Chapter 30: Caught mistake

chapter 30-

A/n: I really don't feel like writing an happy author's note right now.

Maybe this day is one of the worst days of my entire life. I feel completely humiliated right now because of some certain issues.

I can't able to cry.

I just don't want to.

Please make me happy by voting and leaving a comment below. I don't know who to turn to but you guys;)

Sad chapter:/

I'm sorry! :)

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Clara's point of view:

He was seriously looking at me with his gorgeous eyes. My eyes automatically locked in his gaze..

He was really handsome, I can't believe that I'm going to be with a wonderful guy like him. I just don't feel worthy of him. He was a perfect guy, with a good heart and a gentle personality that I'm sure everyone loves.

While me? A complete mess. A walking mess. A walking messed-up girl who was struggling in her pretty-messed up life.

What did I do to deserve him?

He looked gorgeous in his red v-neck shirt and faded jeans. He had always that strong features and charm that nobody could resist.

My heart was pounding into my chest...

" Are you okay? Did something happen to you? " He walked closer and enveloped me in this warm,comforting embrace. He started to check out my body to see if there were bruises.

" I'm fine. Don't worry about me. " I said, while looking at him.

He finally got inside and closed the door behind him.

I'm missing him so much..

" Uhm. What are you doing here by the way? " I said, while serving him a glass of juice while he sat on a couch.

" Did you forget already? I'm your boyfriend. I can't last a day without seeing you. And... I think, we need a proper talk. I'm sorry for what I said in the car earlier... "

Our heated conversation rang on my ear.

We just fought a while ago.

" Greg--  

" Not here, sweetheart. We have to go to a private place so we can fix everything we needed to fix. This time, we would tell everything to each other. Clara, I don't want us to fight anymore, it's killing me... "

He took my hand and held it. He looked very determined.

" I-I don't want us to fight,too... "

" Then, please trust me on this relationship. We could make everything work, just believe in me..."

He stood up and held me in his arms.

I can feel the erratic beating of his heart and the warmth of his body.

" I'm planning to go on a one-week vacation. Since you told me that your examination day was postponed and confirmed to due next week. The campus president administrator suspends the next 5 days of classes because of the tragic incidents at the Royalty high... "

I bit my lip and I can't be able to meet his gaze.

Why do I feel so guilty?

Clara,,, please compose yourself.

His fingers tilted my chin to meet his eyes.

" And.. I want you to come with me and let's spend the one-week vacation together. We have to talk about everything. And this time, I'm not letting you go. "

" But Greg--

" No excuses this time,chére. "

Please... I'm not prepared to confess to him everything yet...

Not now.

" Greg, I-I'm sorry but I can't... "

" Don't you want to be with me?" Pain flashed his eyes.

" No, it's not like that Gregory. I wanna be with you, but I just can't right now... "

" If you want this relationship to fall apart, then just tell me. I'll do it for you. I would stop loving you. "

My eyes widened by his words. My tears were threatening to spill from my eyes but I held it.

" What's wrong with you? I just want you to understand my whole situation! This wasn't easy for me Greg!! If you want to stop loving me, then fine!!! Go!! I'm not stopping you!! "

I pushed him away and hurt was obvious in my voice and face.

He's always like this!

He looks absolutely surprised by my sudden outburst.

" You're right! I don't understand you simply because you don't explain to me!! I feel like a useless boyfriend to you, for you to know!!! I felt like shit every time you lie to my face and tell me everything was alright!!, and lastly, I'm so tired of---

I cut him off.

" You're already tired of loving me? Then stop it!!! I'm so tired of you too!! Maybe it's better if we stop this madness and separate ways!! We don't owe an explanation to each other anymore!! I thought you were better than this, Gregory!! I can't believe you!!"

Tears were already escaping my eyes.

He's breaking my heart with his stabbing words..

His face suddenly softened when he saw my tears. Guilt flashed his handsome face.

" C-Clara... Oh my god... I-I'm sorry.."

" Get out!!! I don't want to see you anymore!!!!"

He ran to me and pulled me against his embrace. My tears were uncontrollably spilling every where. I felt so mad and hurt.. I kept pushing him away but he didn't let go.

"  Sweetheart please forgive me... I love you so much that's way I'm so mad thinking that I would lose you... I didn't mean what I said a while ago... I wouldn't stop loving you even though things fall apart... "

Why can't I just let him go?!!,

I can't!!!!

I hugged with with all my heart and clung to him like my life already depends on him.

" I'm so sorry, Greg... I love you so much... "

He wept my tears with his hands and planted a kiss on my forehead.

" I love you more, Clara... "

" I'm coming with you,Greg. Let's fix this. I don't want to lose you... "

We locked hands and clung to each other. The promise of love and lifetime, surrounding us...

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That' chapter was a product of a sad,  beaten heart.

I hope you enjoy this!!

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