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(13) Reality Hits Home

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Sorry took down the shit 2 and I am going to replace it for the better, you know better language and better punctuation oh and of course longer.

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---Chapter 13-------

I roamed the whole camp thinking and ignoring everyone who approached me or wanted me. Everyone was shocked due to the fact that I never ever over think but I guess there is a first for everything, I mean most people need to see change. Like how Smith wants me to grow up but I know that won't ever happen. Ha, even Ronny wanted me to grow up yet he can't see me now, man I wish he could. Heck he might even help me with the secret Daniel and Smith are hiding.

I smiled to myself as the memories of me and Ronny arguing and how it will never happen again. A small smile appeared on my face, Ronny might not be here anymore but I can at least be proud I actually knew him, because honestly when my mother died I was sad but crying and being miserable will not help, it won't bring her back. I just have to accept the fact she's gone.

I sighed looking down at my feet and started counting the steps I took my mind was still set on the smallest things, even though I really did want to know Smith's secret I also wanted not know what if I did find out and regrated it, maybe Smith is not telling me for a good reason. So why won't he tell me the reason?

Today was not one of the days I enjoyed, in fact it the worse day that happened ever. During the day everyone stayed away from me, if I think about it I saw no one today which was weird. Usually Smith would be right in front of me leading me to another mission or towards my privates. Where was Smith anyway? I stopped for a minute, blank I competly forgot what I was about to do, as soon as my mind came back to me I decided to look for Smith though as I looked around for him, from time to time I would zone out and forget where I entered, I walked into a small room but forgot how I got here, as I was about to get out of the room I bumped into a tall guys chest.

"Oh sorry." I apologized taking a step back.

"What's up with you?" The man asked.

I looked up to see Smith standing with his head cocked to the side trying to read me.

"Nothing." Was my simple answer.

"You don't seem okay?" He said.

"Well if you know why ask?" As soon as I said that, I completely regreted it.

I took a big sigh and waited for him to give me a lecture, but nothing. I let my eyes wonder away from him and as soon as they left him, arms wrapped around my body and a warm body was pressed against mine. Slowly I procced what Smith is doing, though the longer the hug was alive the more I stated to remember this weird feeling. The last person who has ever hugged me was my little brother, though that was years and years ago before he even left for war. Then the memories of actually having Jayden around, how I would always tease him but would always get bullied at school, the best memoery would probably be when he fell down the stairs and balmed me for making his injuries happen.

It was only when I finally snapped back to reality I realised that Smith was not hugging me, in stead he looked at me and I took a step back away from him, though I took enough steps to know that there was a chair placed behind me, I stumbled back onto the chair.

"What was that for?" I asked.

"You seemed like you need a hug." He smiled.

"Oh." Was my blunt dry reply.

I looked away from him starring at my fingers.

"Hey Smith." I said in a low tone.

"Mhm." I heard his reply.

Looking back at him, he had a smile on his face and his eyes seemed to shine more now, right now he looked so much like Jayden I couldn't believe it, it felt like Jayden was in front of me almost wanting to laugh because he blamed me for something or I'm the one getting in trouble. It was like when we were young, in the moment I felt like I was finally happy.

"Atrix?"

I snapped back to reality.

"Oh, I just wanted to ask you, about you know Jayden." I forced out.

The shine in his eyes disappeared and his smile dropped.

"Atrix, why all of a sudden bring this up?" He asked.

"I was just thinking." I said.

"You shouldn't think about that."

"What do you mean? All I have been doing is thinking about Jayden, the reason I came here is so I can find him, I know he's alive and I want to prove it." I blurted out.

He didn't reply.

I stood up and brushed past him, suddenly I just felt anger. I walked around the camp wanting to punch things or shoot things. Everything around me seemed to anger me more, people walking past smiling actually happy. But I shouldn't be mad over that, they are happy I shouldn't be so jealous.

Just because you want to be happy, does not mean you should be angry.

I know I shouldn't be, I want to stop being narrowed minded, I always wanted to be the life of any party, I stayed happy to keep everyone else happy. When mother died after Jayden left, when they sent me that dreading letter, I stayed optimistic, I had to.

I stopped in my tracks looking up at the sky, breathing a deep breath in. I closed my eyes before breathing out. Peeling my eyes open I felt a lump in my throat, it was like this feeling was new to me when I know it probably was not but I can't remember the last time I shed a tear. It's been years, and I really mean years.

"You are an idiot." I whispered to myself.

It was then I realised that I was not near camp what's so ever, I turned around only to see dust being blown, my eyes scanned my surroundings only to have everything repeated. Being the stupid me, I only spun around and walked to where I thought I came from, but to my expectations, I only ended up even more lost. What do I do? I usually have Jason or Smith to tell me off, or help me back. Wow, this makes me think that I take too much for granted. I really should be more grateful to Smith and Jason, next time I see them I'll thank them.

At that time I was beginning to worry, how will I get back to camp? I'm completely lost and I don't know what to do, I don't know where I am and the sun is beginning to set. As I kept walking on, my footing began to slightly stumble. My pace slowed down and all I wanted was to sleep.

"Atrix?" Deep and husky voice said behind me.

As I was about to turn around to see who, a painful piercing shot through my back, widening my eyes and knocking the breath out of me. My back arched due to the impact but soon relaxed again, my breathing became loud and audible but soon slowed down, my eyes began to drop and my body felt heavy.

"What now hot shot?"

I thought to myself, before I completely blacked out I grinned to myself and only replied with-

"Whatever comes next."