Chapter one Alone in the middle of the world

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Ohhhh...This world is so freakin' h
ard to understand....Anyways...Altough I am super shy and such a big nerdy boring and ugly girl...I try to make friends and..Just do something in this awkward life! I AM NEVER EVER GOING TO BE PART OF THE BRIGHT AND HAPPY SIDE OF THE WORLD,I know I can't...So..I kinda try really hard to accommodate in my school...But no one understands me ...This is sooooo frustrating...I am confused..Was I born to be a normal,cute,awsome,funny,stylish and social girl??????Or..... Not?....😕

I would never want to do anything but make friends

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I would never want to do anything but make friends...I wish I had a pretty-in-pink life, you know, just like that girl in my class, Miriam. Altough she seems shy and adorable, she's been born in a very rich family, and she has... 3...i think ... siblings. And 2 more halves  which are kinda complicated to explain... You see, her mother had an affair with her best friend's husband. But it was secret. They both hated themselves for what they had done in that night, when.. Well, they were probably drunk. I don't blame them though, I don't know the whole story for sure. That man already had 2 kids.
That is how they became Miriam's half brother and sister. Wow...She sure is lucky to have so much company  around her. I bet she's always in the center of attention . Her life is so perfect. About me... Well. This is how it all started. I think... No,I'm actually serious. 💁🏻Wasn't that even a bit funny? No. It's ok. I'm not good at anything! 😿

This is a photo of my cousins

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This is a photo of my cousins.... And my auntie.... Look at them. T-they're so precious and look so happy together. I bet they are having fun.I'm not. I could never. My family is ... weird. I guess that is how I turned out to be a looser. And a stupid girl who hasn't got no friends. I know I'm supposed to love myself,but in my situation...You can't really blame me. My life is shit. It's full of shit...  📝🖋 ...
My father is.... Well, he's gone. I--i'm ab--bou--t-tt to c--cry. It's okay. *heavy inhales* ...
... I'm a total mess. I haven't got the chance to meet him! What have I done to deserve this life?! When my mother was pregnant, my father was on a one month trip to Mexico. U know. Business and stuff. Not my thing really. He had a car accident. But it wasn't his fault. A stupid psycho was at the bottom of all this.My mom was a mess! She cried EVERY SINGLE NIGHT . It was hard for her. And i'm very grateful to at least have her,and my aunt Christina, uncle Carlo, and cuzzie Juliette, short Jolie, and her little sis ,  cousin Bella. My mom is a very strong and amazing woman. I admire her alot.She's my role model. Because she tries to make our lives better, ignoring the fact that it is hard for her. It's like we're lost on this planet. But we're held together by a very strong seal. I love you,mom , I've always had,And i'll always do. ❤️

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