It's been almost two weeks since I and Jimin stop talking expect the occasional glance we give each other when we are in the same class.
Each time I glanced up and our eyes meet My heart picked up, and his presence alone create some kind of emotion in me.
I don't know what I am feeling about our situation I am not sure about anything right now, probably the only good thing about today is, my best friend visiting me.
"Kim y/n" the teacher called me
"Yes"
"Mind paying attention to the class?"
"Am sorry" I bowed slightly before he turn back to continue his teaching, after almost ten minutes the time indicate the ending of the class, and I packed my things fastly and makes my way to the parking lot since Yoongi told me he is going to take me out for lunch.
When I get there I saw him leaning against his car waiting for me, I ran towards him engulf him in a tight hug.
"Ya, let me go, what are you doing?" He shouted while trying to be free from me
"I know you love it" I said before letting him go
"Bitch, shut the fuck up and get in the car before I change my mind" he grumbled, I quickly get in the car.
We drove for about 15 minutes before we arrived at our favorite restaurant, we get in and went to our usual table.
"Hey Yoongi, hey y/n what can I get you today?" Said the waitress since we are regular customer here the workers knows us
"Hey sarang, I am gonna have samgyeopsal and bulgogi" I said while looking at yoongi he is looking at me with a look that say my poor money
"What about you?" I asked
"Korean stew with kimchi" he said, sarang scribed that before going to place our order
"So how is everything going?" He asked while looking at me, that reminds me of things I don't wanna remember I really don't know how things are going and I don't know what I fell about everything too.
"Good, it's been good" I said forcing my voice to be neutral, yoongi just set there inspecting me like I am some kind of laboratory rat
"You and I both know this is a lie now speak the truth" he strictly said
"I-i I really don't know yoongi everything is good it really is, the campus, the life, the teaching except dorm everything is good"
"Does any new thing happens after you called me last time?"
"Kinda" I mumbled complementing if I should tell him or not
"He kissed my neck and I let him do it" I raised my head expecting a shocked expression but he's just seating their silently waiting for me to continue"
"It's just, when ever when I am around him I can't control my body nor my mind, when he is close I crave for him so bad, so bad that I don't know what to do with it and I don't know what it is about him that is so alluring, it is driving me crazy, why him yoongi, why him?" I pored out what ever I am felling and set their not facing his eyes
"Truthfully speaking I don't know what to say to you but the one thing I wanna tell you is it's not wrong to fell this kind of attraction so stop beating your self about it and about the situation I think you should try to figure it out by your self, stop trying to avoid it and trying to know about it or explore, I don't know don't make me do this kind of things I am not good at it" he said getting embarrassed, I chuckled at him.
"Tank you for the advice my dear friend even if it's not helpful" I teasingly said he shot me a glare at that moment sarang came with our food placing it on our table, I can fell my mouth watering
"Your gonna eat all of this?" Yoongi asked
"You know I will" I winked at him, then start eating fastly, well I am hungry.
After we finished our food yoongi dropped me at university since I don't have class on the afternoon I went to my dorm.
I changed my close and went to my bed to sleep my worry off.
When I woke up it already is dark, I set up on my bed only to realize my first thought again has been him.
3rd person pov
She is sitting on the bed blankly staring at the wall with her never dining thoughts, the ache of shame that drag inside of her has only gotten worse with the hours, once again pulling her back to the binds she spent trapped on.
The weakness she felt from his slight touch "why am I cold" she mumbled
This days she is starting to like the darkness more the ultimate company of the stares sharing her worries helping her hide far from the light away from human site hiding her lonely untamed soul.
Even in this state of silence spread all over her inner voice are there bothering her non stop
But she still like it because its like an escape for her a time which she can show the true her.
Unlike other people she doesn't see darkness as hunting or scary instead it fascinated her cause it revel the real and the true her.
She gazed up on the bed that is across her that has been empty for the past two weeks "what are we supposed to do" she mumbled while gazing at the bed longingly.
She still doesn't know what to do she didn't decided yet how to approach the problem 'should I talk to him about it' she asks her self but what am I supposed to say "hey Jimin I can't not stop thinking about you so take responsibility" this so stupid how can I even think about saying this kind of things to him she thought, "I should just try to talk to him ya I should do that I am gonna do that tomorrow" she mumbled to her self with a determination.
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BE WILD!/PJM
Fiksi Penggemar"I hate you" I snapppped glaring at him with malice but he continues to come closer to me like what I said didn't even bother him. I wanna run but my body isn't cooperating with me. he came slowly closer to my earn making his lip to brush against...
