Muslim girl and... love?

Chapter 30

There she was! My babe! We both hugged the life out of each other. I looked at her.

"Girl we have a lot to catch up on!" I winked at her.

She laughed and gave me a quick hug again "Yes we do!"

I let her in and she walked right in to the living room. I closed the front door and walked right behind her. She sat at the opposite side of my family since they had all shifted to one couch so that me and Samara could sit on the other one. Right when she was about to sit down she remembered something.

"Oh shoot I forgot my bag in the car I'll just go get it." She stood up though before she started walking I stopped her. "Don't worry about it you chitchat with my parents I'll go get it." I knew she did it on purpose I knew that Omer would be in the car so I decided to go out there and finish the talk he wanted. I wanted it over with. I didn't want this to be unfinished till Friday. When I was heading out I heard Samara and my mom starting up their little chitchat.

"Asalamualikum aunty and uncle, how are you?"

"We're alhamdulillah fine, thank you darling. How are you?" my mother asked.

"I'm fine too aunty."

I was at the front door now. I let in a long breath and calmed myself. I quickly fixed my hijab so that there wasn't any visible hair and went out. I was walking to the car and I was right it was all planned he was still waiting there almost right in front of my house. Right when I was about to get to the car he was about to get out but I signalled him to stay. I didn't want any drama.

When I got to the car I sat in the front passenger seat. I could feel his stares on me. We stayed silent for a few minutes and i couldn't tolerate it anymore.

"What did you want to talk about Omer?" I didn't look at him. I just stared at my palms.

"It's so nice to hear your voice again."

"Omer stop this and get to the point." I didn't come here to make it any worse I wanted to end this right here. I needed to focus. I don't want shaytan to get to me, not anymore. I know I have made a lot of mistakes and I admit it. And InShaaAllah Allah will forgive me for my sins and help me become a better muslim. He forgives alhamdulillah. And I believe it's never to late to repent, Allah forgives the ones who admit their mistakes and tries to save them from getting any worse.

"Okay, fine. Aisha I just want to tell you that I don't want this to end. I dont want us to end. This is not how it was supposed to work out. I am so sorry for all of this and I know I've hurt you a lot but please forgive me."

Ya Allah why is he doing this?! I wanted to stop all of this so I stopped him and decided to have the last say in this conversation.

"Listen Omer this. Us. We were never meant to be and the sooner you realize the better. Allah swt. wanted to teach us a lesson. He doesn't want us to let shaytan take over us. And that's exactly what happened. I am sorry for everything but all of this was a mistake this is not how muslim girls or boys for that sake are supposed to be. I am sorry but Allah has already written our destiny and we can't change it. I am sorry but Allah has shown me that this was a test it was never meant to be us. I don't know what else to tell you than that I am very sorry. And we should stop this right now before it's too late." I can't believe I had it in me to tell him all this I actually thought that I'd have chickened out but alhamdullilah Allah gave me the willpower to do it.

I got out of the car and opened the backseat door and took out Samaras bag and closed the door and walked towards my house. I stopped in my tracks when I heard Omer yell my name. I didn't turn around or anything but I stopped. I could feel he was standing right behind me now.