Ashley Purdy is my dad, Andy Biersack is my lover and CC has a crush on me

Ch.4 Knives and pens

***a week later***
Today I had to start school. gross. I always got bullied for my past and my present and what I would be in the future. I put on black skinny jeans and I put on a gray tang top with a leather jacket. I threw on my sharpie covered converse and walked down stairs with my one strapped bag with bad buttons on it along with some batman ones too.
"How did you sleep, darling?" He sang but it sounded weird.
"Good and don't ever do that ever again." I said laughing, I took out my eye liner and put it on with my phone as my mirror cause I was running late.
"Okay, well let's go." he said, I ran out the door and started walking down the street, I walked five blacks and finally got there, people already giving me discussing looks. I walk in and get tripped. wow, school hasn't even started and I'm getting tripped. FML!!!!!
"Watch where your going emo!" A cheerleader yelled laughing with her friends. I got up and walked to my locker. I grab put some stuff in it and walked to my next class.
Math.......... WORST SUBJECT EVER! I walked in and I saw Mr.Barrnet. he was checking out a cheer leader who, in my opinion is wearing a bra too small for her. Class started like fifteen minutes ago and he hasn't even started.
*cough* prev *cough*
"I'm sorry class just got a little distracted. today we have a new student, um.... Casey Purdy." he said looking around, I raised my hand.
"Ah, yes. could you stand up and tell us something about yourself." he said with a slight smile.
"Sure," I stood up and every one looked at me, I couldn't think of anything, I like Bands, my parents were murdered in front of me, I'm the daughter of Ashley Purdy, I don't know, "I like to play the drums." I said sitting as quickly as I could down.
"Okay, today were going to learn about..... blah, blah...." I stopped listening I put in my head phones and listen to some music. the bell was loud but it finally rang, I ran out and got tripped.
"Wow, the emo can't stand up for two seconds with out falling." a cheer leader said as a jock put his arm around her.
"Bet she lost too much blood from cutting." he chucked, I glared at them and ran out of the school. I rang back in when it was time for music. I walk in and I was greeted with no jocks or cheer leaders in the room. just some kids that looked.... well emo.
I sat in the back corner of the room and waited for class to start. then a guy with black hair came running in while singing.
"Hello! My name is Me.Urie and I am here to tell you about a amazing song!" He sang as he jumped on to the desk. We laughed a little.
"Today, we are just preparing for the talent show." He said, he took attendance while asking what we could play.
"Casey!" He yelled.
"Here, and I can play drums." I said.
"Matt!" He yelled.
A boy with black hair and side bangs raised his hand, "here and I can play bass."
"Kat!"
a girl with white hair with black tips sang "I can sing!"
"Kendal!"
"I can play the guitar." a guy with blond hair raised his hand, "I can play bass and piano."
Mr.Urie shot his head up. that was all we had in the class? It was small.
"You guys are a band now!" He yelled playfully, "singer, bassist, guitarist, another bassist an pianist and drums!" He pointed to each of us when he said each one.
"Okay, but we don't we need to know everyone?" Kat asked.
"I know you know each other but Casey cause she's new. just get to know her and then we will get back to talk about it next class cause it's time for you guys to leave this school! Now home work! Go to one of your guys house and hang out!" He yelled, we all walked out.
"So Casey, tell us about yourself." Kendal said.
"Uh.... I love bands, Im what is considered emo, and that's it if you don't wanna know the deep stuff." I said.
"Tell us the deep stuff we all had deep stuff." Kat said.
"Tell me first and I'll tell you." I said.
"Okay, I used to starve my self and I got so skinny you could see my organs." Kat said.
"I was in 9/11." Matt said with a New York accent.
"And I cut myself so much I almost didn't wake up one time," Kendal said, "now you."
I stopped in the hall way.
"I watched my parents get tortured and killed, I have PTSD, depression and I got adopted by the best person that could." I said.
"Oh, Casey that's awful." Kat said side hugging me.
"Yeah, so who's house should we go to?" Matt asked.
"We can go to mine." I said, then we got stopped by some cheer leaders and jocks.
"Looks like you added one more emo freak to your 'army', Kat." the one from math said.
"Go away val!" Kat said loudly, val walked up to Kat and smacked her in the face. the jocks held Matt and Kendal back while a few cheer leaders held me back, but I wasn't struggling. the voice of the man just went threw my head.
"Don't make a noise!"
The cheer leaders held me with no grip, I kicked the one on my left's leg and elbowed the one on my right they fell to the floor and Kat was getting beat the heck out of. I kicked val to the ground and the guys ran lut as the jocks went to Val, I grabbed Kats hand and we ran out together. we were all out side and I saw Andy's car.
"Where's your house?!" Kendal asked frantic.
"Follow me." I said running to Andy's car, they ran behind me. I nocked on Andy's window and he rolled it down.
"Your dad is really worried about you, where were you?" He asked calm.
"We got jumped!" Kat yelled.
"Get in the car with your friends." he said. I got in the front and the rest of them were in the back.
"You got jumped?" He asked me worried.
"Kat did." I said pointing to her.
"Are you Andy biersack?!" She yelled.
"Yeah," he said with a faint smile, "are you okay?"
"Yeah I'm fine." she answered calmly.
"Andy, this is Matt, Kendal, and Kat." I said.
"Nice to meet you guys." Andy said politely.
"You too." they all said. when we got home Ash-pie was out side pacing back and forth. I got out and walked to him.
"OH MY GOD! I was so worried! Where were you?!" He yelled hugging me, my friends got out of the car and gasped.
"My friend Kat got jumped and we got held back." I said hugging him back.
"Who's we?" He asked letting go.
"My new friends, Matt, Kendal and Kat, and we have to do a project together so we'll be doing that." I said.
"YOUR ASHLEY PURDY!!!" Matt yelled.
"OH MY GOD!" Kat and Kendal yelled.
"Yeah I am, let's get inside." He said, we walked inside and went to my room. Matt sat in my wheely chair and the rest if us at in the bed.
"So, I say were pretty close now. we got jumped together, I only let my closest friend get jumped with me." Kendal joked, we all laughed.
"Yeah, were close now. should we make a band name?" I asked.
"Yes!" Matt said.
"Okay, who has ideas?" Kat asked.
"Flaming cats!" Kendal said laughing.
"No, American-" Kat said but was cut off.
"Nope I was born in England." I said, I was born there but didn't grow up there do I didn't have the accent.
"Okay." Kat said, we stayed in silence for a while. then I had an idea.
"Weighing down life." I said, we all sat up.
"I love it!" Kat said.
"Me too." Kendal said with a slight smile.
"Yep, love it like a fan girl." Matt said in a diva voice.
"Were weighing down life." I said with a smile.
"That sounds really cool." Kat said.
"I'm gonna tell my dad." I said getting up and walking out, I walked down the stairs.
"Hey Casey, what's up?" Da-Ash-pie said.
"Me and my friends are putting together a band." I said sitting next to him.
"What's it called?" He said.
"Weighing down life." I said proudly.
"Cool, what are you?" He asked smiling.
"Drums." I said.
"Nice, go upstairs to your friends." he said.
"Okay, love you!" I said kissing his cheek then running up stairs.
The rest of the time we just had fun talking. when they left I sat down and thought of my life before Ashley.
Cutting with a pen, PTSD attacks every hour, bully's, not being cared about. now I'm cared for, barely and PTSD attacks and I haven't cut since I got out if the orphanage.
Then what every one said to me at school and what my mother said and what the man said filled my head I grabbed a knife and cut my arms a couple of times and I look at the pen and just write down random things and put the date. it helped me, it was the only thing I knew how to do. I quickly tried to find some bandages but there were none.
"DA-ASH!" I yelled, he quickly ran up to the door.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"Can you get me some bandages?" I asked hoping he wouldn't ask why.
"What happened? Let me come in." he said, but I locked the door.
"No, uh... just can you get me some please." I said while blood dropped on the floor.
"Give me the knife." he said.
"I-I-I d-don't have one." I said lying.
"Don't try to lie open the door," he said sternly, I open the doo as he gasped, "sit on the sink."
I did as I was told and he got out some rubbing alcohol and some bandages.
"Da-ash-" I was about to say but he cut me off.
"Were you about to call me daddy?" He asked while cleaning my arm.
"Probably shouldn't, should I?" I said looking down.
"It's fine if you do, I'm your daddy now." he said with a slight smile.
"Okay, daddy. I'm so sorry." I said starting to cry.
"It's okay, just don't do it ever again. and tell me why." he said.
"people were saying so many mean things and I started thinking of what the my mom said and the guy who killed them." I cried out.
"It okay, baby." he said finishing the bandages, he pulled me into a hug and I cried into his shoulder while he rubbed my back, "me and some of the guys are going out tonight an Andy was going to stay with you, but if you wa-"
"No go, I'll be fine with Andy." I said wiping off the tears.

***later that night***

"Okay we will by the latest be back by tomarrow." Daddy said leaving.
"Okay, bye, love you!" I said. daddy left and Andy went over to kissing my cheek.