Animal くコ:彡 Yandere Bungou stray dogs

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"Candle and bandages"

Pairing: Dazai

Theme warnings:
Toxic relationship, mentions of blisters, mentions of burn marks, delusional thoughts

Type: drabble

Summary: he didn't have a choice

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You knew.

You knew you shouldn't have stayed. Shouldn't have cared as much as you did.

You knew it wasn't right.

You knew he wasn't right.

He was like a fire that attracted insects just to burn them when they get close. You were burnt too.

Burnt—

and I mean literally.

You held your hand close to you as you tried to hold your tears in. Your left hand ever so slightly brushed against the small new burn on your right wrist to comfort yourself. In front of you was the only light source in the entire room and that being a candle sat on top of the dinning table.

Shadows danced around the room from the flickering light and shadows moved when he walked behind the chair you sat on.

He placed both of his hands on your shoulders as he leaned in close to your ear.

"I told you, didn't I? I told you not to go against me... See where it got you?"

His bittersweet voice slightly echoed and it sent a shiver down your spine.

He leaned in closer and wrapped his hands around your shoulders. Hugging you from behind as he hid his face and pressed his nose close to the crook of your neck.

"I wish you didn't. I wish it never came to this. I'm sorry. I'm sorry you were hurt. I'm sorry I put you through this. I'm sorry— I'm sorry— I'm sorry—"

His mindless apologizes flew right through you.

He had done this very often when you'd go against him.

He'd tightly grip your hand just above the candle as you'd let out several choked up tears. It didn't leave a big blister.

But it sure did hurt when your hand was held like that for—

Let's say 5 minutes.

He'd then comfort himself by continuously apologizing and saying how you should have just listened to him. He'd say it hurt him more to do this than you actually being hurt.

You'd like to disagree.

He'd pull you from the chair and into his arms to stroke your hair gently as your face was pressed against his chest as you could hear his heartbeat.

You wished his heartbeat would just—

stop.

Your face would be further pressed against him as you leaned into his touch.

He'd think you had forgave him and had finally gave up.

But in truth.

You were just exhausted. Tired to even pull away.

He'd absentmindedly apologize to you and cradle your face in his palms to look at you. He'd press a lovingly kiss on your forehead, nose, and a small peck on the lips before pulling you along with him to your shared bedroom and set you down on the bed.

He'd take out some herbal cream and a roll of bandages.

He'd rub some of the cream on the new burn mark which would make you wince and grab onto his shoulder with the hand he hasn't harmed.

"I told you. You always cause trouble and then this happens. Do you really like pain so much?"

You'd silently listen to him ramble on and on before he stops to screw the cap back on to the herbal cream, then pull out the roll of bandage. He'd gently wrap it around your wrist then pull back to put everything away to its original spot.

He'd cuddle, with you being the little spoon as your head was once again held to his chest. He'd say things like—

'I'm sorry'

'you should have just listened to me'

'I went too far, didn't I?'

'I love you, I'm so sorry'

'please just listen to me next time'

'i didn't want to do this, you know?'

His apologies would turn into a way to comfort himself.

And you'd wonder—

Where did I go wrong—?

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(725) words

Wrote this drabble at 5 in the morning cause I couldn't sleep. Thank god my mom didn't send me to school that day since I was a bit sick and I got to sleep past 10 which is pretty nice since I don't usually get to sleep past 8 or 9.

And I'm so sorry for not updating my BSD fan fiction. It's just that I'm planning to release several chapters at once which will take a while but do not loss hope cause I'll update eventually.

Any other work that resembles this chapter is clearly unintentional.

See you in the next chapter

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