angst/fluff, g!p reader
Y/N pov
I have always been alone.
What is the difference now?
Everything.
I now am an idol.
I honestly didn't think I'd make it.
The only reason I trained was to keep myself busy and here I am.
Debuting with Le Sserafim.
They try to get along with me, but I have a hard time trusting people.
I know they don't mean harm but I just can't.
They know my boundaries and they respect that expect.
"Y/N!!!!!" I heard someone shout while getting closer.
I was on the couch thinking when I got interrupted.
"What is it Eunchae?" I sighed.
"Whatcha doing" she bounced on over next to me.
I scooted away.
"Nothing just lost in thought." I leaned my head back.
"About what?" She came closer.
"Nothing." I got up and went to my room.
The main reason why I don't trust people is because when they find out I have a penis everything changes.
I am not trying to get close with these girls because if I do and they find out it is going to hurt my heart if they don't accept me and all those feeling and bonds are going away.
It is a waste of time honestly. But I still show my appreciation to the girls, I help Kazuha study Korean, Yunjin makes me learn English, I play video games with Sakura, I help relieve stress off of Chaewon by helping her around the house, and Eunchea....
Eunchae just stresses me out. I try to put up with her but she tries to get to know me even more than I am not comfortable doing.
I got up and went to the kitchen to make food for everyone.
Eunchae sometimes calls me heartless. I am not it's just I can't express feeling well but the other girls know I care.
I was again lost in thought that I didn't notice Eunchae pull up a chair in front of me.
I was cutting an onion when my eyes started burning, I shed a small tear.
"Geez it took you cutting onion to make you cry" she said while giggling.
"Ha Ha" I said sarcastically, rolling my burning eyes.
Once I was finishing up, Eunchae called the girls to come and eat. I served them and set their plates on the table.
I saw Chaewon come and looked at me, she noticed my energy. She pulled me aside.
"Hey, everything okay?" she looked at me with concerning eyes.
"Yeah it just I need to clear my head for a bit. Enjoy the food im going out for a walk." I smiled lighly.
"okay come home safe. We really do care about you." she pecked my cheek and went to the table.
I grabbed my coat, mask, hoodie, and left the dorm.
Eunchae Pov
I saw y/n leave after Chaewon kissed her cheek.
"What was that about?" I said trying to hide my jealousy a bit.
"Don't worry about me taking y/n away from you." she giggled.
I pouted.
"Like she would pick you but, I'm serious where did she go." I looked at her with stuffing my face with food.
"Ouch, she went for a walk to clear her mind." she went back to eating her food.
"Imma go find her." I grabbed my stuff and went out.
**Time-Skip**
I roamed around before spotting her at the same park she took all of us after debuting, to relax.
I smiled as I made my way to her.
I sat next to her on the bench.
"Why do you always follow me?" she said.
"Because I care." I said, looking at her.
She was looking ahead, to an open field of flowers.
"Why care about someone who is heartless?" she said.
"Y/N i know you are not heartless, I just try to make you smile or laugh or get some type of reaction out of you." I said not looking away for her face.
"Well you going to have a trouble time doing that." She looked down picking at her fingers.
"Then I guess i'll keep trying." I grabbed her hand and kissed cheek before leaning my head against her shoulder.
