Regulus black smut/one shot

what do I do?

ok so this one is a bit depressing but a happy ending

regulus x Gryffindor female op

ttheir hey are in sixth year, known each othe ther since first tear

TW: sh, eating disorder, depression, underage drinking/smoking, swearing

WC: 759

all of these things I am writing about are not just for a topic I have been through this stuff and still am for the most part

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Another day I wake up and wish I could stay in my dorm all day, I feel a pounding in my head from the vodka last night wasn't the best plan. I get up, get ready, and walk to potions "you're late, you know if you keep coming late you'll miss out on important things and won't get far in life" my professor says as I try my best to block him out and walk to my seat "ok class open page 153" after what felt like two years it was next period, I walk down to the black lake with my favorite book, I can feel the heat through my pant covered legs "hello Skye" a voice says from behind me "hi Reggie" I replied with as he sits with me "it's a bit hot for long pants don't you think?" he asks "I thought it was going to be cold" I hummed and went back to reading, me and reg talk for a while before I head to the library for lunch, as we part ways I let him know I ate during the first period and before he came over, I knew it was lie but he didnt and thats all that matters.

"Skye!" his familiar voice is everywhere today "whats up reg," I asked "wanna hang out for a bit," he asked "sure astronomy tower?" he nodded as you both walked up after a couple of comfortable silence he spoke, "want one?" he asked and held the cigarette towards me i mumbled a "yes please" and grabbed it and took a long puff "are you ok," he said softly "I'm fine" i replied "you don't look fine" "then stop looking" i replied and look away "you know, I'm always here when you wanna talk" i took one last puff and headed off not repiling

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It's the weekend, it's 5 am and I fucked up there's my blood on the floor I've cut too deep I write a letter for my owl to send to regulus I feel as if I'm going to pass out as my owl flys to him, a couple of minutes pass and I hear my door open and arms wrap around me and a towel on my thigh "I'm sorry" I cry into his chest "It's ok, I'm here now I'm here" he says and kisses my forehead. he helps me shower after and he notices the old and other fresh cuts and the fact he can see my ribs, he looks as if he's going to cry after he helps me get dressed and helps me with eating food, we fell asleep that night with me in his arms watching movies on the tv I snuck into my dorm

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im avoIding him, i see him and turn the Other way, i turn into a room, i turn a corner anything to make sure i wont have to talk about that night

its 11pm and im calming myself down at the astronomy tower, "skye" an oh so calming voice says "go away regulus" i say coldly but feel like I'm going to cry speaking this way to him for no reason " Skye please talk to me" i ignore him "please" "go away black" i spit out "god dammit Skye I am here for you! Ok, you aren't ok so don't tell me you are when i ask you, tell me how you're feeling, tell things skye" he says a bit louder "i am fine, will you just leave" "won't! no i wont leave until you tell me whats wrong or give me at least a fucking insight on whats going on!" he yells with tears down his face "i cant do this reggie," i say as he looks at me " I cant ok, i am hurting and when im not im numb, i cant eat cause i dont feel good enough, an-and I care like i always fucking care but no one else does i mean my parents disowned my cause im a witch, my friends didnt even noticed that I started avoiding them excect for you and remus, I want to kill myself so all my problems go away but I can't bear the thought of hurting you I dont know what to do anymore" I sobbed as regulus held me "skye you should have told me, i-i could have helped you" as we talked we grew tired and yet again I fell asleep in his arms except under the moonlight and this time I didnt runaway from him the next day.

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If anyone is going though this my dms are always open xx