As it Was / A Joseph Quinn story.

11.

I woke up probably too early and reached for the bathroom. I was still naked. I came back to Joseph's bedroom looking for something comfortable to wear while in bed; I found one of his t-shirts on a chair so I wore it. It had his smell on it. I got back to bed trying not to wake him up, looking at his face: he looked so relaxed, and so handsome. I probably felt asleep for a couple of hours more. When I opened my eyes again I turned to see Joseph with messy hair, looking and smiling at me. I would have made a deal with the devil to wake up like that every day.

He whispered a soft good morning and gave me a quick kiss on the lips.

"Coffee?" he asked

"Yes, please"

"Wait, stay here"

He walked out of bed and disappeared over the door, going to the kitchen. I heard noises of cups and plates, smelling hot coffee. He came back ten minutes later with a tray in his hands, bringing two cups of coffee and biscuits on it. He sat beside me and we had breakfast in bed.

"I don't remember you wearing that last night" he said referring to the t-shirt I was wearing, while drinking from his cup

"I will return it soon"

"Don't need to rush, it looks good on you" he put the cup on his bedside table and looked at me "but actually you look better when you're naked" I probably blushed

"You sound very confident, Quinn"

"I'm just stating the facts" I cleared my throat and tried to change the subject

"So...what are our plans for today?" I eat a chocolate biscuit and drank a sip of coffee before place the cup on the tray and look at him and his bare chest

"Let me think about it" he said taking the tray and putting it on the floor "What is something we can do lying in bed?"

"I have no idea, you tell me" I loved flirting with him. While talking we were slowly getting closer.

He kissed my lips and I giggled "do you like my idea?" I kissed him back touching his shoulders

"Explain it to me once again, please" he kissed me with more passion "I still don't understand"

He took the t-shirt I was wearing off, letting me in my panties again. Then he made me slide under him. He was just in his boxers and I could already feel his erection.

"Got it now?" He whispered. I simply nodded, already aroused. We kissed passionately. He slid his tounge into my mouth, making me taste coffee. Then he put a finger in my mouth before rubbing my clit gently while looking me in the eyes. I started gasping, while my breath became more and more irregular. It didn't take long before I could feel him inside of me. I bit his lips and sucked his tongue, feeling him thrusting harder and harder.

"This is...fucking good...so...fucking...good" he whispered before his orgasm.

Silence filled up the room for a few minutes. He went to the toilet and the he came back with his erection in full sight. He put on his boxers and got back to bed again, kissing my shoulder.
I looked into his eyes. There was a whole world into those brown eyes. I could get lost in them.

"Would you like to take a shower?" He asked

"I could really use one"

"make yourself at home" I thanked him and walked into his bathroom. I let the water run and waited a couple of minutes for it to be warm. Then, an idea popped in my mind. I stepped out the bathroom with just my head and asked him to join me. He looked surprised but didn't let me repeat it twice. We took a shower together, talking and laughing, helping each other out with soap, also kissing and hugging, but most of all, living those perfect moments together. I never felt so good sharing my life with someone of the opposite sex. I always thought it was impossible for me.

We spent the rest of the day eating, watching some tv series on Netflix, having sex, kissing, laughing, talking...basically doing what a normal couple does. I didn't want the day to end, but when you have fun, time always flies, right? When I checked my phone I had a lot of texts and most of all the clock on my iPhone said it was already 8pm. I should have known by looking outside, because it was dark.

"I think it's time for me to go home" I said with a frown

"Are you sure? You can stay here as much as you like..."

Tempting.

I shook my head "it's ok. Tomorrow I start at 9pm and I have no clothes with me"

"Well, as I said, I like when you are naked"

"But Hunter doesn't, so, I better get going" he laughed and nodded

"I get it" I put the dress and the shoes back on and made my way to the front door. It had become  a little awkward to say goodbye. I really didn't know what to say. He walked after me and sighed.

"I guess I will see you soon?" I nodded "Remeber, we still have one date before you decide to say goodbye forever" he said, with disappointment in his voice.

"Why would I do that?" I asked, a bit annoyed by his assumption

"Well, it's pretty obvious"

"I'm not following you..."

"Andy, what do I have to do to make you understand I'm into you?" My heart bumped into my chest "but sometimes it seems like this feeling is just one way so I suppose you will soon tell me you want to end up things" I didn't know what to answer so I just looked away "my point exactly"

"Let's just...I mean...Goodnight Joe" I had so many thoughts going up my head in that moment  that I don't think I made sense at all. I just ran away to the closest tube station.

Why did he have to ruin things? Everything about that day was perfect and yet he wanted to break it into pieces. While on the tube on the way back home I felt like all that five date deal was the most stupid thing I got myself into. My usual thoughts about love and relationships started to rise up again. I really liked Joseph, everything about him was just perfect, but in just 10 minutes he destroyed the good between us. Why couldn't he keep his mouth shut?
Reality hit me hard in the face. The whole living the moment thing was absolute bullshit.
I took my phone and dialed my mother's number. She answered, surprised to hear from me.

"Andy, hello!"

"Why am I so broken?" I asked without even saying hi to her

"What do you mean? Are you ok? Are you drunk?" She sounded worried, of course

"Why did you keep on forgiving dad even if you knew he was cheating on you?"

She sighed and remained silent for a while "what is this coming from?"

"I'm sick of living in the shadow of your relationship with dad"

"Then don't" she knew I had issues because of her relationship with my father "I just don't get why you're calling me now about this"

"I am kind of dating someone"

"Well, it's beautiful Andy, you should be happy"

"Yes, I should. But I can't. I'm scared I'm going to end up like you, do you understand me? Why couldn't you just let him go?"

"I loved him, Andy. I don't think you can understand"

"Make me, then"

She sighed and waited for the right words "love is something unexplicable, most of the times. I thought my love could change him, but people don't change... at least, that's what I thought. Then, your father found Sally and now he acts like the perfect husband and dad. Maybe we weren't just right for each other...I got that too late. I think that real love involves some change... he was the man I loved the most in my life, but I wasn't the right woman for him. Just...that. But after all these years I'm over it, even if you won't believe me" I sighed "I don't know what is happening to you, but whoever is making you feel like this...maybe is the right person" I remained in silence "Andy, are you still there?"

"Yes, mom. Thanks. I'll talk to you soon, ok?" We hung up. I thought about her words for the whole night, not sleeping much.

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What a looooong chapter!!
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