My Everything |Ariana grande+Big Sean

Why Try

I started walking to Seans house. I was dressed a little nicer. As I walked up to his house, his mom was walking out.
"You can go on in honey, Seans home" she said with a smile. His house was huge. I walked around exploring. I went upstairs and turned to a door that had 'Seans Room' across the front of the door. I knocked and opened the door. When I walked in, all my rage built up to punch the shit out of something. It was him, and some blonde chick, making out with both half naked.
"What the efff, knock first freak" she said with a attitude. "Uh....I-did. But I'll go and let you two finish" I said with tears in my eyes. I could tell Sean felt bad as he got up and followed me outside. I tried to walk with a fast pase so he wouldn't catch me. He ran up and grabbed my arm. "Talk to me" he said pulling on me.
I needed him, but not like this. "I know we aren't together, but we almost had fucking sex and you go and try again with another girl and you make me feel like I'm being used. It kills me how you love me then you cut me down, I'm in love with the pain, and I never wanna live without it. So why do I try." I let it all come out, and tears rolled down my face.
He hugged me close. I felt safe. It started to rain. "Go back to your slut" I whispered, ruining the moment. I walked back to my house with tears in my eyes. But you couldn't tell because it was pouring rain. I had on a dress and some pumps so I was really uncomfortable. As I walked up to my house, Avery walked out.
"Oh my gawd, what is it Ari??" She could always tell when I was sad, or hurt, even in the rain, when I was crying too. "Nothing, I just wanna take a long shower and lay in bed" I said trying to make myself stop crying.
"Okay, but call me later". I nodded and went to my room to get my towel. Only home for five minutes and texts from the biggest ass in the world.

I'm sorry, please call me

Text me back you can't not talk to me forever.

I'm going to come over if you don't text me back

I'm on my way.

Oh lawd. He was on his way. I hurried and got in the shower. But it was extra long.
I cried alot. 'Why do I even try' I thought.

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So I guess that's what happened when I went to my boyfriends house. But not the whole thing about why do I try and we almost had sex. I'm still a virgin so thank god (hallelujah)
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