Dysfunctional ~ xxxtentacion

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Trigger warning: mentions of SA

Jordyn

I wake up to Jahseh asleep next to me.

I get up causing him to wake up.

"Where are you going?" He mumbles rubbing his eyes.

"I need to go home" I reply pulling on my sweats.

"Why?"

"Because I haven't been back and I need some more clothes and just to clear my head" I reply.

"Let me come with you" he says standing up.

"Bring a guy to my house for my mom to see? Definitely not Jah"

"We're just friends" he shrugs.

"Yea but she won't believe that" I say slipping on my slides.

"And if she's not there?" He questions. 

"I'll message you and tell you to come over" I smile at him. 

He pulls me against him for a hug and I hug back, pulling away shortly after.

"Make sure you message me" he mumbles and I nod.

"I will"

I leave his room and walk down the hall past Addison's room.

It's crazy how I can barely stand her at the moment.

I walk down the stairs and out through the front door towards my house.

I pull my keys out of my pocket and unlock the door walking in seeing that nobody was home.

"Hello is anybody home?" I call out and get no reply so I message Jahseh to come over.

It felt weird being back home and made me feel kinda tense.

I walk up to my room and kick off my shoes as I enter the door.

The anxiety setting in that I was about to have a guy in my room for the first time.

My room is very personal to me, I draw or write what's on my mind then stick it on my walls.

I'm sure Jahseh won't judge or anything...hopefully.

Jahseh

I look at the message Jordyn sent me.

Jordyn🥀: you can come over, the door is unlocked and my room is in the same place as yours
Sent at 4:45

I pick up two pre-rollled blunts and make my way out of the house.

I walk across the street towards Jordyn's house and through the front door.

Her house was the same exact layout as Gabi's house.

I walk up the stairs and into her room.

Wow.

"Ignore the walls" she mumbles but I don't listen.

Her walls were covered with drawings and poems.

"You did all these?" I ask looking towards her and she nods lightly.

I continue looking at the drawings until I come across one of a woman's body.

"This supposed to be you?" I ask and she just shrugs.

"I didn't know you was this good at drawing, why didn't you tell me?" I ask.

"Because you never asked" she replies watching me admire the drawings.