Notification From You [] SKZ x Lee Felix

From You... #3

When Felix stormed off, he went to his room, and slammed the door, pissed off completely. Yet somehow, feeling so vulnerable that he needed to scream. He hand immediately grabbed his phone but he froze.

'Why should I both Omani about this? She's too busy worrying about her wedding.' He quickly set his phone down and face planted into his bed, a long groan escaping his mouth. His brain flashed to questions and unproven conclusions, few tears leading down his face.

'This entire time, I've gone through so much for them. I had to perform multiple times with my back injury, then with my biggest insecurity visable. I thought Chan would be the one who would stop things like this, not join them. All I want to do now is lay in bed and cry. Why are they insecure? Do they think I love someone more than the other? Why is it so hard for someone to trust me? Am I that much of a bitch I can't keep someone's trust?' His sobs grew and grew until he started having a panic attack, his breath wonky and stuck in his throat. His eyes blurred with tears and only inaudible sounds left his mouth. All he wanted to do is leave, but his legs buckled and his heart rate slowed as his head fell straight back onto the bed.

He passed out.

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Waking up, his eyes blinked open slowly, when he noticed he was alone in his bed. A sigh left his lips before he got up, knowing exactly why he was alone. It was almost 4:30 pm, and he wanted to leave the house.

In the bathroom, he looked at himself. Puffy and red tear stains all over his face, and his hair was a complete mess. He grabbed a brush and yanked it through his unhealthy raven hair. He grabbed some concealer and some other makeup products and delicately put it on his face after priming and washing his face.

The threw on a hoodie and some jeans, adding some accessories aswell before leaving his room. When he made it down the stairs, he saw a bored Seungmin and a upset Jisung on the couch, both staring at interviews they did while on tour with their husband. Their eyes easily landed in the ravenette and they both hopped up.

"Fel-" Jisung began, but Felix held a hand up.

"No. Please. Don't talk about that right now, please. I really want to have a good day. Can we- just like... go out? I'll pay if you want I just don't want to be here right now."

The both of them noticed the makeup he was wearing, and saw the tired look on his face. Glancing at eachother for a second, they nodded. Felix turned towards the door and they followed, Jisung swiftly swooping ahead and jumped into the driver's seat of a rental they received from their company.

Felix curled himself up after getting in the back, Seungmin sitting next to him. They were quiet, not wanting to ruin Felix's opportunity to go out with them.

Said boy cleared his throat, staring at the window. "Why...?" He croaked out, hurt filled his voice as it came out as a whisper. His eyes flicked to Seungmin. "Why do you think I don't love you guys enough..?"

He was quiet for a while, and looked down. His fingers took over his interest, as a drop of sadness fell from his face. Felix softly glanced over, not as sweetly as he would have the day before.

  "W-well... H-Hyunjin d-did make a go-good point..." Seungmin stuttered, not lifting his head when speaking. The car slowed down a bit, from the reflection of the mirror, Felix could see a weary expression on Jisung's face. "Jeongin a-and I are one of the yo-youngest and we really don't get to do much. T-the older ones usu-usually get to b-be wif you all da t-time..." He words started sounding more sad and squished together, causing his words to become more childish. The brunette looked up at him, his eyes watering and his lip quivering. It easily broke his heart to see that scene.

  "I-I never- ever! Got to have you to myself for a night... neifer did Jeongin... so I j-just kinda thought that y-you liked them more..." a small sob left the puppy boy's mouth as Felix looked at him in realization. A wave of shame hit Felix as he realized most fo it was quite true.

  "I-" Felix tried to think of a way to words his thoughts before he pulled Seungmin into a hug. "I'm sorry. I didn't realize this was how you felt. I tried to hang out with you both, but I usually got caught up with the 3racha line and their opinions of songs and things. And if you feel like this again, you can just ask me to go out, I'll always say yes to you Min."

  Seungmin sobbed into Felix's shoulder guilt pouring into him. "We a-are treating you like your an obj-object to be p-passed around. You deserve s-so much better than this L-Lixxie.... I don't like thinking about hurting you..."

  The ravenette didn't day anything back, but instead he pecked his cheek and held him for a while. Jisung stopped the vehicle and put it in park before getting out of the car and opening it for Felix and Seungmin.

  "Thanks." He nodded.

  Seungmin calmed himself down quickly as he noticed they were at a park. His gasped in awe before running up to a tree and climbing it.

  "SEUNGMIN WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!!"

  "I'M BIRD WATCHING DUDE!!!" Felix laughed light heartedly, before sitting on a bench where Jisung sat next to him. Jisung gazed at Felix's every feature, remorse and guilt hitting his head like a tracker.

  "Felix." The ravenette's eyes landed on his.